Stuck together// Bakudeku

Dear Diary Chapter 5

{Midoriya's pov}

[The say before the U.A exams]

Dear diary,

I hope what my therapist told me is true and that writing in this thing will help. So I guess I will start with today, it is the day before my entrance exams, I am so terrified. Ever since I received all might's quirk around the middle of summer, I have been incredibly anxious. Kacchan constantly pesters me and is even more pissed at me because I accidently told him I got a quirk. I was going to tell him after the entrance exams but we live together, so it's hard to hide it. Wow I have lived with him for almost 3 months now. I don't really have a friend group but aunt mitsuki makes me go with kacchan with his group of friends when they hang out. He bullies me then since he obviously can't do much to me at home. It has been a pretty slow summer but I am glad, this way it feels like I will never have to do the U.A exams but now I guess I do. I have gotten buffed up this summer from the training with All Might but I am still not prepared enough to use my quirk during the exam.

I turned to a new page and sighed.

Sometimes I fall asleep doing homework or reading and when I wake up I end up in my bed tucked in and light off. I think my mom does it, because no way would kacchan do that. Speaking of Kacchan, he has become so strong, I enjoy watching his quirk evolve and how strong he is becoming. My therapist told me I idolize him because I talk about him a lot during our sessions. I think I may look at him as an idol. He is strong, courageous, brave, speaks his mind, and sometimes, only sometimes he is kinda nice. Usually that is only when he is tired though. Anyway, I think this whole diary thing is helping. I hope I get into U.A, I want to become a hero so badly. I don't want kids like me to ever have a father like I once had. I passed the written exam very easily, I just hope I can get through the final entrance one tomorrow.

I placed my pencil down and looked out my window in front of me at the night sky shining down on me. I looked ahead at the leaves swaying in the night wind without a care in the world. I then heard the bathroom door open. I quickly put my dairy in my desk drawer and turned around for my eyes to see kacchans.

"Yes?" He looked incredibly not tired, it was almost 12am and he was usually asleep by now or something.

"Fuckin deku" He grabbed me and lifted me from my desk chair and threw me against the wall.

"W-wha d-did I do now" I quickly stood up from the floor with my back against the wall. He inchiched towards me.

"I swear to God, if you FUCKING get into U.A tommorow...I will kill you got it dammit!?" His eyes fired red and orange with rage, but something seemed off. "I may not understand how the fuck you evolved a damn quirk but you are still a weak pathetic bitch!" He stared deep into my eyes, probably could see my soul with his deep stare.

"I can do what. I. want." crap did I just stand up to him no no no guess I will see heaven in a minute.

"Tch no you cant, fucking wimp" He was inches away from my face and I tried burying my face in my neck like a turtle, if only I was a turtle.

"Fuck you, I DESPISE YOU, FUCKING WEAKLING" I could feel his warm breath on my face, see his angry eyes, feel the presence of his balled up fist against the wall next to my head, and smell his carmell scent. Before I could respond back he then walked back into his room. Closing both bathroom doors behind him.

I sank against the wall by the bathroom door next to the desk chair. I buried my face in my knees and just sat there for a while thinking why do you hate me?

{Bakugou's pov}

I stomped back into my room and put my back against the wall by the bathroom door, by my desk chair that faced the back wall, just like dekus. (A/N: I know there is a whole bathroom between them but you can get the point!)

If deku gets into U.A he will get stronger. He could fucking surpass me with his stupid new quirk and think he is above me. But if he gets stronger maybe I wont have to bully him and shit but then he would just put himself in more danger than he could probably fucking handle.... And If he gets into U.A I WILL NEVER FUCKING NOT SEE HIM. I was hoping TO GOD he wouldnt fucking get into the same highschool as me. He BETTER FUCKING NOT. I AM SO SICK OF THAT LITTLE SHIT. I HAVE NEVER NOT SEEN HIM ALL DAMN SUMMER.

I stood up from the floor and sat in my desk chair and opened up my stupid dairy the old therapist gave me. My mom told me I need one cause of MY FUCKING ANGER ISSUES and aunt Inko made stupid deku go to him too because he is apparently is deperessed and has childhood trauma. I grabbed a fucking mechanical pencil and opened the first page.

Dear diary,

It is 12 fucking am, I dont know why I am writing in this stupid thing but I dont care. I cant sleep and maybe this stupid book will help me. Today is the day before the U.A entrance exams. I obviously will get in but if deku doesn't get into U.A, then I couldn't protect him. I don't want him to at the same time because maybe then I would care less about him. Deku has no fucking idea how much I protected him from shit in middle school. I would bully him yeah, but a lot of the time it was because I don't want anyone else to. He is fucking weak and I know any kid would love the chance to pick on him. I kicked any kids ass that tried to come near him. Ugh that is so gay of me to do. He has enough problems with dealing with all the shit he has dealt with so if anything I am helping him by bullying him, right? I don't want deku to get into U.A but at the same time I do. I hate emotions so much I just wish they would die.

I heard a slap through the other side of the bathroom. Fucking deku fell asleep again does he ever get in his fucking bed. Fuckkkkk

I got up from my desk and walked through the doors and sure enough deku's face was smashed against a book. It was just a study book though on all might's quirk. Of course he would be reading that. Luckily for me, deku is a very heavy sleeper. I put my arm under his legs and the other on his back and lifted him up. I carried him bridal style over to his bed but subconsciously didn't put him down.

"Wow why is he so beautiful, I wish I didn't care for you. I wish I didn't have emotions. Fuck thats gay no youre ugly, with your stupid freckles and obnoxiously soft hair. I must make you believe I hate you for our own good. I have to make myself believe I hate you too."

I realized I was just staring at his sleeping face in my arms, creepy. I put him in bed and pulled his blankets over him. I do this shit like 4 or 5 times a week. I turned off the lamp and walked straight back into my bedroom. I fell into my cold bed and reached up and turned off my nightstand lamp. Tomorrow will be such a annoying day.

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(word count: 1369)

Ok so it's a BIT shorter, around a 5 minute read. I hope you all like it and continue to read. Please tell me your feedback!

Question of the day: What characters would you kiss, marry, kill.

My personal answer: Kiss: Bakugou, Marry: Denki, Kill: Mineta OBVIOUSLY