Some people would call it their biggest mistake, I'm calling it my one reason why.
#1 in onenight 12/28/19
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It's been about two weeks since I last had a conversation with Black. I mean, he did go to my appointment where my doctor told me I was in the clear and was off bed rest, but other than that? We haven't spoke.
I'm completely fine with that too.
We're strictly co-parenting now, which means that the only communication that we'll have is when it concerns our child.
After my major freak out and breakdown I had last week, I decided not to think too much about Black anymore.
He's taken too much of my time when this is supposed to be the happiest time of my life. Not to mention, I don't need to stress over him, i need to focus on better myself for my child.
At this point, I'm over thinking about things that I can't change. So I'm going to only worry about the important things.
Unfortunately, I still haven't gotten another car since my accident, but that's all going to change today.
I'm going car shopping with Trey today.
Which I know is probably his and Black's way of checking on me and being nosey, but I don't mind since car dealerships tend to give you a better deal when you're with a male.
They assume that women don't know shit about cars which I hate, but it is what it is.
It was either him or my daddy and I don't really wanna deal with my folks right now since they'll know it's something wrong and won't dead the issue until I tell them.
I don't want them to know I was still fucking Black, yet. I know I have to tell them, but not now, I want to end this pregnancy with zero stress moving forward.
I shouldn't have done the shit in the first place so it's all on me.
After finishing my late breakfast, I clean up and then text Trey to see when he'll be on the way.
Me: hey treybae Treybae 🥳: I told you to stop calling me that crazy girl 🤦🏽♂️ Me: now you know me no careee 🙃. But when you coming? Treybae 🥳: I'm about to leave now, I was just about to call you so you can be dressed, yk you take about 50000000 hours 🙄. Me:whatever dude I'm finna get dressed now, I'll see you when you get here treybae 🤪 Treybae 🥳: 🤦🏽♂️
Going through my clothes I land on something cute and causal, to get me through the day.
After laying out my clothes I play some Ari Lennox before beginning my hygiene routine.
Starting my makeup, I allow myself to get lost in my music.
The weird part? I can lowkey relate to the music, aside from the smoking part, obviously.
🎶 I've been smokin' purple haze, ooh All to forget about you I've been smokin' purple haze, ooh All to forget about you And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try, I try But I'm havin' the worst luck on Tinder Ooh, why'd you have to be a big pretender I try, and I try, and I try, I try, I try To give you somethin' good, 'cause I know you would Give it to me, too 🎶
