I'm Torn Between Three (One Direction Love Story)

Chapter 13. Life Crashes You Down But There Is Always Someone To Pick You Up

Dev's POV:

"Babe, wakeup." I heard Harry's raspy voice ring through my ear. I snuggled in deeper in his bare chest. I didn't want to wakeup. I just wanted to lay in bed with him forever. "I'll tickle you awake Dev." He warned. "Please don't." I said. In the morning, my voice is at it's softest. "Awwee, you sound so cute. Fine, I'll give you five more minutes." He said kissing my head. "Thank you." I whispered. After a few moments of silence, I heard someone open the door. I could feel Harry's arm move and then the door close again. "Babe, it's been five minutes." He said. I sighed and got up. I detangled myself from him and stretched. "Sleep well?" He asked. "Yep. Did you?" I asked him as I straightened my shirt. "The best I've had in a long time." He said. As I was about to get up from the bed, Harry grabbed my wrist. "You look so beautiful." He said. I blushed and slithered my wrist of his grip. "Well, you look handsome." I giggled. As I was about to walk to the bathroom, Harry stopped me. "What? No morning kiss?" He asked. "Not with my bad breath!" I exclaimed. I went to the bathroom and brushed me teeth quickly. I went back with Harry who was patiently waiting on the edge of the bed. "I'm ready now." I said. "Good." He walked up to me and pulled me by the waist. He gave me a sweet kiss on the lips and pulled back. "Every kiss just gets sweeter." He whispered. I bit my lip as I smiled. "Same here babe." I giggled. "Ahem." I heard a cough from the door. We both turned our heads to see Liam awkwardly standing at the door. "We have an interview in an hour. So yeah. Get ready." Liam said and then scurried off. We both laughed and turned back to each other. "I guess you have to get ready." I said. "You too." He said. "Why?" I gave him a confused look. "Because you're coming with us." He said. "Again? Remember the last time?" I asked a bit annoyed. "Babe, you are not going to be in the interview. You're just going to be watching from the sidelines." He said. "Well, okay. But I swear, If I get called up there and get bitched at then I'm losing it." I said walking to my suitcase. "Don't worry. Nothing's going to happen." He reassured me. "Fine, but it's on you Styles." I said picking out my clothes. "Alright. But still you shouldn't stress over nothing." He said. "Yeah, well..." I trailed off. I finally picked my clothes, and looked at Harry. "Ermm...so..." I trailed off awkwardly. "Yeah, continue on with your usual routine." He smiled cheekily. "Harry, I'm not going to undress in front of you." I said. "Why not?" He whined. "Because I feel weird, and I'm going to take a shower anyway." I said walking to the bathroom. 'Good, we can save water and shower together." He said cheekily. "No Harold." I said firmly. "Just a little peek." He whined. "No." I shut the bathroom door on his face and locked it. "Please babe." I could hear him pout. "la la la can't hear you." I taunted as I turned the water on. I took a quick shower and dried off. I changed into some casual wear since I'm NOT going to any interview. I wore my baggy grey MAKE LOVE long sleeve shirt with some black skinny jeans. I put on the basic makeup and lightly curled my hair. I opened the door to find Harry sitting on the floor in front of the door. "Have you been waiting all this time?" I asked as he got up. "You only took like 20 minutes." He chuckled. "Huh. Well you should go get ready know." I said. "Okay, but just one thing." He said. "And that is..." I trailed off. He pulled me in closer and lightly put his fingers under my shirt. "You need your medicine." He whispered and started to tickled me. "Stop Harry!" I yelled through my laughs. "Say that you love me and then I'll stop." He said. "Okay, okay. I love you." I said out of breath. "Good girl." He said satisfied. I caught my breath and noticed that we somehow ended up on the floor with him ontop of me. "Harry...erm...you should get ready now." I said through little giggles. "Yeah, you're right." He gave me a little kiss on the nose and got off me.I slipped on my grey beanie and put on my black and white vans. I grabbed my things and we went back to his room. "You look cute." He said as we walked into the room. I blushed and thanked him. "Well someone looks happy." Louis asked cheekily. "Well, y'know..." I trailed off sitting next to him. "So I guess this means that you and Harry are official now?" Louis asked. "Yep." I said with a smile. "Hey Lou -" Niall stopped mid sentence as he walked out of his room. "Oh, Dev." He ran to me as I stood up. He practically tackled me with a hug. "Why didn't you tell me about it earlier?" He asked. "About what?" I asked. "The bullying, the disorder, the feelings. Why?" He asked pulling away. "You saw the twitcam, didn't you?" I asked. "What twitcam?" Louis asked in the middle of this. "Yes, and the video. Is that why you told me you felt like that?" He asked. "Well, yeah." I said as I faced the floor. "Do you feel like that now?" He asked. "WHAT TWITCAM?' Louis screamed. "No." I lied totally ignoring Louis' screams. "Good, you shouldn't feel like that Dev. You are a beautiful girl and Harry is lucky to have you." He said with a smile. A forced smile. "WHAT TWITCAM GOD DAMN IT?!" Louis yelled at the top of his lungs. "Shutup Louis! I did a twitcam yesterday and talked about things." I snapped at him. "No need to shout now." He said putting his hands up in defense. I chuckled at his fake innocence. "Hey Ni-" Zayn stopped in his tracks like Niall. "Hi Dev." He said with a forced/fake smile. "Hi Zayn, did you see my twitcam yesterday?" I asked. "Yeah." He simply said and walked back in his room. I guess he's mad at me for something I said or did. "Are you coming with us?" Liam asked as Niall was about to say something. "Yeah, Harry wants me to come so I'll just tag along and watch." I said. "Are we ready to go?" Harry asked coming out of his room, looking good as always. "Yeah, c'mon everybody." Liam gathered everybody and headed out to the van. We piled in and I sat next to Harry while Louis sat next to me. Niall, Zayn, and Liam all sat together in the back. As I thought of all the things that could probably go wrong on me coming to the interview, one thought stood out. "Harry." I whispered. "Yeah babe?" "What are you going to say if they ask you if your single or not?" I asked. "Erm...I don't know. It depends on you. Do you want to go public? He asked. I had to think. I can deal with hate but It's just all the pictures. The papz took so many pictures of me, Niall, and Zayn on our dates. It's just something in my gut is telling me no. "Yeah, I'm alright with it." I said letting out a breath of air. I went against my gut feeling. "Great!" He gave me a little side hug and a kiss on the cheek. We got there and the boys went to makeup while I took my place next to the side of the platform. "Five minutes!" A guy called. Everybody started to run around and the interviewer sat on her chair. By the time I knew it, The interviewer started to talk. "And today our guest is ONE DIRECTION!" All the girls went wild, I even saw some girls crying. They walked up the platform and sat on the couch provided for them. "Hello boys. How are ya?" She asked with her perky personality. "Great." All of them said. "How has America been for you?" She asked. They all answered with different things. The interview went on and on till, of course, they got to the relationship questions. "Who's taken here?" The interview asked. Harry, Liam, and Louis raised there hands. "Whoa, you're taken Harry?" She asked. "Yup." He said popping the p and smiling. "Who's the lucky girl?" She asked. "Dev, Dev Scott." He said proudly which made my heart flutter. "Is she here with us now?" She asked. Harry looked at me with an undescive look. I shook my head for no. "Yeah, she's over there!" Louis called. I smiled nervously at everyone that looked at me. "Well don't be shy, come over here darling." She said with a warm voice. I stood up from my seat and straightened my clothes. A crew member brought a chair for me to sit next to the couch where they were sat. "How are you dear?" She asked sweetly. "I'm good. How about you?" I asked. "Great. So you are the lucky lady that stole the heart of the heartthrob?" She asked cheekily. I blushed and giggle nervously. "Yes." I said softly. "How is it like dating the infamous Harry Styles?" She asked. "Erm...it's great...I don't know what to say. We just like get along really well." I said now feeling myself grow a dark red. I laughed nervously as I put my head down. "Do you have any tattoes?" She asked randomly. "Yeah, I have five." I said. "May we see?" She asked. "Sure." I lifted my sleeves up showing my two wrists tattoes, I showed my ankle, and I just told them about the one on my shoulder blade and bicep. "What do you find most attractive about Dev, Harry?" She asked him. "I don't know how to answer that. She is just all out beautiful. But if I had to choose, it would be her...smile." The crowd awed. "Awe that's cute." I turned even more red, if that was possible and smiled to the ground. I just couldn't look up. "How about you Dev? What do you find most attractive about Harry?" She asked. "That's a very hard question. Erm...I would say his personality." I said. "What is he like?" She asked. "He's such a good person. He makes me laugh and he makes sure that I'm always smiling and alright. A very sweet guy indeed." I said. I could see Harry smiling and blushing from the corner of my eye. The crowd awed again. "You guys are so cute together." The lady gushed which made me and Harry blush. "Thanks." We both said. "Okay, So after the break, we are going to be doing questions from twitter and the audience and a few...experiments." The interviewer winked at the camera and it went to commerical. I started to walk back to where I was supposed to be but Harry stopped me. "Hey babe. You did awesome." He said giving me a small kiss on my lips. "Thanks, but I feel so embarrassed!" I said hiding my face in my hands. "Awe come here." He wrapped his arms around me as I stayed in my original position. "Why do you feel embarrassed?" He asked. "Because I was redder than a tomato! I also look like shit." I muttered. "Your blush is cute love. And you do not look like shit! You look beautiful, all day every day." He said. I looked up from my hands and saw him smiling down on me. "Thank you." I mumbled. "You don't have to thank me anymore babe. You're my girlfriend and I love you. I say all of these things because I want to." He said. "And that is why I love you." I slithered my arms around his waist and looked up at him. He kissed my forehead gently. "Everybody on set." A guy called. "I have to go." He said. He pulled away and he went back to the couch with the rest of the lads. I sat back and watched them do stupid things. "Well, that's it for today folks. For the last time, One Direction everybody!" She finally called and everybody applauded and cheered while the boys waved goodbye. "And we're out." The producer yelled. The boys said goodbye to the interviewer and came to me. "Where are we going next?" I asked as we walked to the van. "Sound check and rehersals." Liam informed. "Cool, but at what time does it finish at?" I asked. "Silly girl. We have to stay at there. It's sound check, rehersals, then concert." Louis said. "Hmm...well, I don't think I can stay for your concert. I actually have a radio interview to go to." I said as we piled back into the van. "Awe that sucks. How long are you going to stay?" Niall asked. "Oh, I don't know. Till four." I said. "That's in the middle of rehersals. Well. atleast your coming." Louis said. "Yeah, it should be fun." I said. We got to the arena in no time. The boys went to the different room while I went on the stage. I looked around at how big the place was. It was fascinating. Just knowing that people will fill the area with cheers and applause is incredible. I do sometimes wonder, if I could ever become a singer. If I am good enough for that, but then again. I don't really think I'm fit enough for the job. "We'll do it all. Everything. On our own. We don't need. Anything. Or anyone. If I lay here. If I just lay here. Would you lie with me. And just forget the world..." I sang Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol for absolutely no reason. I just an impulse and urge to sing. When I finished the song, a smile spread across my face as I took a deep breath. Some applause came out of nowhere which practically scared me to death. "Who's there?" I asked. I looked up at the balcony seats and couldn't find anyone. I waited for an answer yet I didn't get one. I felt someone hug me from behind. "Don't be scared. It's only me." The husky voice whispered. He lightly kissed my neck sending shivers down my spine. "Did you hear all that?" I asked. "Yes, and it was amazing." He said. "Harry, I'm scared." I muttered. "Scared of what babe?" He asked tightening his grip on me. "What if I audition for Xfactor and they don't like me? What if I chicken out or suck completely? What if everything just goes wrong?" I asked. "Don't think like that. You are an amazing talented wonderful beautiful person who has the x factor. Look at it this way, if you think it's going to go wrong then it is. Think positive love." He kissed my shoulder and rested his head  there. "You're right babe." I simply said. "I know." He laughed. "Don't act so smug!" I said. "I can't help it. I'm always right." He said with a smug grin. "Haz, I think you're talking about me there." I said. "Nope, I'm right." He said. I turned around and faced him. "Who's the one who thought there was a ghost on top of them? I asked with a smirk. "Hey! Don't bring that up!" He said. "Can't help it. I'm right." I winked at him. "Well, that was only once. Actually, let's have a wager. Whoever admits the other person is right loses." Harry said with an even bigger smirk. "You're on Styles." I said. "You're on." He leaned in to give me a kiss, put I moved my head to the side so he would kiss my cheek. "Little bugger." He said. I wriggled out of his grip and walked back stage where most of the chaos was happening. As I pushed pass through the people and noises blasted through speakers, I tried to find Zayn. He hasn't said anything to me since the morning and it's worrying me. "Hey Liam, do you know where Zayn is?" I asked as I bumped into Liam. "I don't know check the stage or the makeup room." He said. "Okay, thanks." We went our seperate ways and I couldn't find him anywhere. I went outside to get some fresh air and unwind. I walked around till I bumped into Zayn. He was smoking and accidently burnt me with the cigarette. I winced at the pain on my hand. "Oh my gosh Dev. I'm so sorry. I really didn't mean it." He said dropping his cigarette. "It's alright. I'm pretty used to it." I said. "Getting burned?" He asked. "No, being in pain." I said. His facial expression softened. "Why have you been ignoring me Zayn? Did I do something wrong?" I asked. He looked down and didn't want to look me in the eyes. "No, it's just that everything's getting too much. I love you and it hurts me to see you with Harry. It hurts even more knowing that you are hiding something big from me. I saw the twitcam and the video you posted. Why Dev? Why did you hide it?" He sighed. "I love you too Zayn and I want you to be happy and move on. I can't just dump Harry and go with you. You have to know, that I'm hiding something for the good of everyone. I can't tell you certain things. I know in a friendship there shouldn't be secrets but  even with my closest friends I had secrets." I said. "How is it that bad? Maybe it's something small but you're overexaggerating it." He said. "Oh, trust me. It's pretty bad." I said. As I thought over my secret and how that's pulling me back from reaching full happiness, tears started to form in my eyes. "I'm so sorry Zayn." I whispered. "Please don't cry." He whispered back. He pulled me towards him and gave me a hug. "Would you be there for me if I was a bad person?" I asked. "What do you mean?" He asked. "If you found out something so terrible about me, would you still be my friend?" I asked. "Of course! It's not the things you do that make you, its the way you act that makes you you." He gave me these wise words that I took into consideration. "Zayn, we need you." A crew member said. "Alright. I'll be there in a sec." He said. "C'mon babe. Cheer up. I'll always love you." He said lifting my chin up so I could see his smile. I smiled back at him and thanked him for cheering me up. We both walked back into the hectic arena. They quickly took Zayn pushed him towards the stage. They started to do some routines and other things that I really didn't pay attention to. All I did was act like a retard to make them laugh. "Hey boys, I have to get going. I'll see you back at the hotel." I said as they finished rehearsing One Thing. "Okay, Bye." They all gave me a hug and I gave Harry a kiss. "Here's the room key, if you want to get in." Harry handed me the key to their hotel room and I headed off to the interview. It was the same old normal interview. This time they only asked if I was dating any of the boys and I said yes. They asked me about all sorts of things. It was pracitcally like 20 questions. I got Starbucks and went back to the hotel room. It was 5:00 and the boys wouldn't be back till 10. Sometimes I think of what I did without these lads in my life. I pretty much chilled and texted people in my room then I went to the cinema. I watched a funny movie and ate a dinner. I came back to the hotel room at about 8:30 so I decided to change in my sweats and do a twitcam. "Vas Happenin People!" I exclaimed. "So right now, I'm alone in the boys' hotel room. I'm bored and I don't know what to do. I got suggestions for doing a few things that I was to lazy to do. "So on the messages thing, I'm getting alot of questions if I'm dating Harry Styles. The answer is yes. Those photos of me and Zayn and me and Niall were only things we did as friends." I said. I did a few shoutouts and followed and tweeted people. "It's 9:30 and I'm now tired and bored. So I'll just go to sleep." I said. "It's been fun chatting and have goodnight." I waved and turned off the twitcam. I laid down on the couch and fell asleep...till my phone rang. I checked who was calling. It was Gabby. "Hi Gabby. How are you?" I asked. I couldn't see very well through the quailty of the video, but it looked like she was crying. "I'm fine." She said. "No, you're not. What's wrong? Why are you crying?" I asked. "Alice, something happened." She sniffled. "What happened Gabby?" I asked preparing the worst. "Amanda's dead." She said breaking down. Those words cut me like a knife. It pierced my heart and made my stomach bunch up. "What? How?" I asked trying not to cry. "She overdosed Dev." She said through her cries. I bit my lip and told myself not to cry. "Listen to me Gabby. I want you to live with Jane for now. Amanda is in a better place." "Okay Dev, I know. Jane already arranged the funeral on the same day of the girls so it can be combined." She said finally calming herself. "Good. Now, just relax and go to sleep. You need your rest." I said. "I know. I just wanted to inform you. Bye. Love you." She said. "Thanks for the notice. Love you too." She ended the call and I threw my phone on the other end of the sofa. Anger and frustration started building up in my system which only brought me into tears. I cried like there was no tomorrow. Amanda, she was like a second mother to me, and now she's gone. She probably overdosed on alcohol and cocaine. I got so angry that I broke the lamp. The only light on; I broke which left me in total darkness. I sat curled up on the corner of the sofa and cried till I had no more tears to shed.