Supercorp: Will Supercorp survive the truth

Chapter 18

Chapter 18
3 months pass by

Alex's p.o.v.
I go to Kara's room and I see Lena again lying in the bed next to Kara's bed. Kara is still not awake after 3 months and Lena has barely left her side. She has put a small desk in the room so she can do some work. The only time she leaves Kara's room is to freshen up and eat. Lena remains strong, but I can see in her eyes how afraid she is that Kara won't wake up again.

Kara's body has stabilized in the past few weeks and she is now breathing with a little support. All she has to do is wake up. Brainy wants to look in her head why she is not awake yet but I think he should only do that when she breathes completely independently.

Lena also doesn't want Brainy to look into Kara's head yet, but I think that's because she's just afraid that Brainy will find out she will never wake up again.

I check Kara's vital signs which are still good and then I wake up Lena because she is still sleeping.
"Good morning Lena" I say when I shake up gently
"Morning" she say and she straight away looks over to Kara
"She is still in coma" I say as I sigh
"But she is stable" she says with hope in her voice
"yeah she is" I say
"I'm going to have breakfast and pick up some new clothes at home" she say and she packs up her stuff and walks out the room

Lena's p.o.v.
After 3 months, Kara is still not awake, her body has recovered silently but she is still in a coma. Every day that I wake up and that she is still in a coma, I lose more and more hope that she still wakes up. Maybe I just don't deserve to be happy.

Brainy wants to go inside of Kara's brain but I don't want him to do that. What if he's find out that she won't wake up again. I couldn't handle that.

I get in the car to go home so I can get new clothes and maybe I will stop by L-corp.  Now that I am at home I immediately decide to have breakfast, I eat cornflakes because that is really the only thing I have left at home. I start with my cornflakes and I see the bottle of whiskey. The past few weeks I have not drank anything but it is now starting to get too heavy I do not know what to do with myself. Before I know it, I poured myself a glass and drink it all at once. More glasses soon follow and before I realize it, I am so drunk that I can barely stand on my feet. I walk to my room to get other clothes, but I end up on my bed and I fall asleep.

I wake up in the middle of the night and I have a huge hangover. Soon I walk to the toilet and have to puke. Actually I should be with Kara but instead I'm now throwing up at the toilet I feel so guilty that I started drinking again instead of staying strong. I'm a bad friend to Kara. I don't deserve her. Tears roll down my cheeks and I look for my blades that I have hidden, but suddenly I hear someone knocking on my door. I stumble to my door and look through the peephole and see Sam and I open the door.
"Why are you here in the middle of the night?" I ask surprised to see her
"Alex called me and said you haven't been to the DEO since this morning and she was worried about you" she say with compassion in her eyes when she looks at me and see how I look
"I'm fine. I just fell asleep" I say not really lying about the fact that I fell asleep
"You don't look fine to me. I can smell that you were drunk and I can see the dry tears on your face" she say
"Okay to be honest no I'm not fine not at all. My best friend is in coma and nobody know if she will wake up or not. Every time I close my eyes I got nightmares about Kara dying. And it's al the fouls of my brother" I say and Sam hugs me
"You don't need to be strong all the time" she say still hugging me
"I need to be strong for Kara it is of no use to me when I am a mess" I say and I break down
"It is also of no use to her that when she wakes you are completely lost" she say
"What if she never wakes up again?" I ask and I cry even harder about the thought about losing her
"There is still a chance that she will wake up" Sam say
"I can't lose her. I love her and I haven't had a chance to say that to her yet" I say