as she walks by

a walk

am i walking? where? in the garden. yeah. i think so. why? why. they give off two very different expressions, dont you think? this garden is very weird. why does it keep throwing questions at me?  i dont like that. what i just did. very contradicting. the garden. hm. weird. feels like a pool. shallow water. water. thats not supposed to happen. this, in general. is not supposed to happen. very weird. lol. theres a song playing. ive heard it. many times. this garden is evil. i just said a lie. no, not how the garden is evil. how ive heard the song many times. i cant say it "seems" familiar either. because it is. if i said that, it would be a lie. but i just told another lie? why? dont ask questions. thats weird. the song. its there again. ugh. was that true? im not sure. ugh? ugh. i dont think its true. but maybe. it might be. hm. oh. ive lost the topic. the garden. the garden is so confusing. the vines are everywhere. gosh. the song is there again. its so weird. why do i keep saying that? oh. another question. i cant put my thoughts by words here. its not. efficient? effective? yeah. its not. too many. too many. of them. lots of them. all at once. am i talking to myself or are they talking to me? very loud. descriptive. so many. words. talk. the song is here again. uncomfy. that word was uncomfy. off topic. im lying again. this isnt what im thinking. is. it? too aggressive. stop talking. ugh. that doesnt fit. its more like a "oo-eh" sound. thats weird. whiny. why is the song here again. ah. the garden. its poking me. thats. i dont know? its something. im lying again. that was a lie. was that a lie? things. things are too. extravagant. not in a good way. too. shiny. too shiny. to put. in words? text. no. ugh. too much. lots of thoughts. head breaking. garden is attacking me now. annoying. doesnt hurt. just. annoying. dont like it. ew. ping. its a ping. the garden stopped. it started again. did it? garden. shut up. quiet. it. is it ok. happy? no. that sounds weird. weird sounds weird. ew. ew sounds weird. word vomit? thought vomit. i dont know. i think that was a lie. gross. thats a good word. better than ew or weird. gross. thats so weird. new song. theres a new song. i. its gone. i thought too hard. thats possible? ew. ! questions?? gross. expression. wait. what were we doing again. a walk. i knew that. why did i ask then. ugh. questions again? toes curl. icky. its back. it is quiet. different. walk. walk!! damn. more. do more. ugh.!!! ick. different. more different. wrong word. not wrong, weird. words. disappearing. gone. slow. quit. ew. bad. shhush. sh