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Prologue

It starts with a prologue. Every god damn things starts with a prologue. So the background story is such that I have been in a relationship for about two years now. And I have loved that boy for eight years straight before getting into this relationship. Yes people like me do exist. Find yourself one. So over time I became way too possessive and depended entirely on him to make me feel better, for all kind of emotional support. Yes freaking way. To the point where my whole life started revolving around him. He's happy, I am happy. He's sad, I am way too sad. He's angry, I am depressed. Perfect chemistry. I wanted to do everything with him. Even when I was busy doing something important, I would still be thinking about him. Are you insane like me...kind of vibes. And trust me ladies and gentlemen, I wasn't happy. Nope. Nada. Not even a little bit. I started telling lies so that I do not make him angry. But then I didn't realize that I was lying to myself. I was little by little losing myself. And I called this TRUE love. Unconditional love. The love which was mine to cherish soon became a full time responsibility. And it started draining me. To the point where a day came when I felt lideless. It was then I decided that in order to truly love anyone else, I need to love myself first. As they say, "you can't pour from an empty cup".

You see we had a fight. A minor one. And I stopped talking to him because I felt betrayed. The night felt like an eternity. I laid lifeless staring at the ceiling... feeling numb. Scary feeling. Trust me. You would never want to feel that again. Never ever. That was like an eureka moment for me. I cannot live like this, I decided. I need to be happy with myself. I need to feel secure and confident about myself. On the extent of giving love to somebody else, I forgot that I too deserve some love. Self love to be exact.

Slowly I am trying to let go of the tight hold that I have on my boyfriend. I would give him his space. And not constantly think about spending all the time together. Most importantly, not be upset if I am not able to do so. I am going to love myself.

Everyday I am going to write something which will be guide me in that path and help me in detaching myself from him a little bit. I really need it. In order for me to stay happy, I really really need this. I don't know how long this will go. Also there will be some days when I won't be able to post anything. But I will try my best to. I really hope that by the end of this I metamorphose into someone who is in love with herself.

So join me in this story of slowly detaching from my boyfriend and gradually falling in love with myself.

I will be the posting my day 1 struggles and thoughts today itself.

You can add this book into your library to never miss an update. But if you don't want to, that's also fine, I guess. I cannot force you to do anything you don't want to do.

I will be seeing you more often now. Everyday hopefully. And if you are also someone who's entire world revolves around their partner or anyone or anything, get along my pals. I hope that we come out stronger together.

In the end I would only say to join my journey of finding myself and who knows even you will find yourself.

Till then,
Fall in Love with yourself