melodramatic sheets.

tears.

there are tears in my eyes when i realized i was holding on too tight.

i don't want to let you go. is that selfish of me to do so? the answer is definitely yes. i don't want you to be anyone's else's but you aren't mine either at the same time. are we together just to be together? do you really need me or do you just need someone? are you confusing your feelings of love for guilt and need? a part of me loves you but the other part of me is screaming at and begging me, "look at me please!! look at the wounds and the pain you are causing me!!" one part wants to hold onto us, not let you go, make you happier than anyone, to not stop thinking of you and your features that i am so enamored of, to never stop remembering our memories, and never stop loving you. my heart says that and it also says this, "cut the chord that connects you with her. try moving on and forget how it felt when you got butterflies by a simple thing she did, work on yourself and learn to fly again. just please allow yourself to be content again." the thing is that i'm not willing to let you go. to throw away the maps and connections that lead me back to you. no matter where i go or end up it always comes back to you and i have no clue what to do. i let the tears to come down and kiss my face because of you. i let them fall and i fall with them because i can't bare this pain and heaviness anymore. i keep holding onto you so tight that i don't even realize it. i need to let you go cause you already have a long time ago.

there are tears in my eyes when i realized i was holding on too tight.