Drown The Mirage

A Reminder To Myself

Why are you so afraid of the Unknown?

new Opportunities bring a certain type of knocking to your Knees,

Urging You To Leave?

To RUN!

To h-hide?

or dare i say it?

To reject and climb into the shoes of the self-proclaimed victim.

My darling dearest self, i think you forget i know you best.

You want the fucking world.

You want it all,

You love having those at your beck and call,

You stay awake at night - unable to sleep because you're so fucking afraid of never having those dreams come true.

You question yourself and ask; Am i simply TOO ambitious? Or is it because this mundane lifestyle you're so deeply cushioned by doesn't seem so bad...

Maybe you don't want to leave?

Maybe you're just waiting for someone else to piss you off into leaving?

Dearest, you forget who you are sometimes.

You're whisked away by the temporary kindness of those who will NEVER change.

You need to save Yourself First.

You have so much fucking power within you.

Those who meet you are charmed by you,

By that dazzling smile- so beautiful your own father tells you never to smile in front of boys lest they fall in love with you.

You are so set on achieving what you want,

that when you taste the fruit of your hard Labor, 

You can't help but tell those around you the sweetness of it all.

Big Fucking Mistake...

You see, by being so amazing, these people secretly wish on your own downfall,

They've seen you fall so many times- only just to get back up again.

They're in awe of you.

Their gaping mouths revealing secret thoughts of wanting to be you,

but you're not stupid.

You see through these fucking facades and boy does it fucking anger you.

I know you forget to see all this goodness within you.

But I see.

I see everything you can be,

I see the world begging to be encased in your benevolent palms,

I see you having an infectious type of control of those around you.

You can fucking do this all.

You're unstoppable.

these dreams will become a reality soon, My Loveliest.

If only you unleashed this beautiful and radiant light within you.

If only you started being a tad more selfish.

If only you realized that you come FIRST.

If only you realized that weak people fear strong people like you.

If only you blossomed into the best version of yourself.

You have a rare power,

Use it.

Become everything you wish to be.

This universe NEEDS someone like you.

You can change lives with your compassion and effortless brilliance.

I see you.

Have non-penetrable courage my love.

Have faith within yourself.

Know who the fuck you are, and NEVER forget.

Everything and everyone else is simply outside noise.

You are superior within your character.

Never succumb to those weaker than you.

There are hard times ahead,

and i know you'll come out stronger for it.

I Love You Always.

-H