**DISCONTINUED** My Wilted Flower (OHSHC x Reader)

12: Confusion

"What makes you think that?"

The words came out of nowhere, causing my soft smile to falter. 'Oh, no,' I thought to myself. "OH YES!" The voice shouted, "You really think you can get away that easily? You can't get rid of me! I'm here for forever. I'm your demons, you can't EVER get rid of me." The voice laughed as I realize Honey was talking. I did my best to block out the voices in my head to listen to Honey.

"-and the whole club is here!" He smiled at me, hoping I'd smile back. He sat on my stomach, waiting. I forced a smile as best as I could, "Oh... Um, why are all of them here? I don't- ...U-um..." I stutter, losing my sentence. "S-sorry. I mean that, I don't really understand why they're here... They aren't here for me, right? They shouldn't be..." I mutter that last part, but with his proximity, of course her hears it. He puts his hand to my mouth, shushing me, "They're here because they care. Because they were worried! When you ran off... they came to help look for you. Kaoru was the one to find you. I can't tell you how worried Tamaki was. Mori, too."

I don't understand why they would care. They didn't know me, but still I nodded. He smiled, "Let's go to them. So they can see that you're okay!!" He jumps off the bed and helps as best as he could to get me out of the bed. When I was out, nearly tripping over my own two feet, he held my hand and walked with me out of the room where Mori and Kyoya waited. Neither looked worried on the surface, but, of course, it was best to not judge one's emotions from what's on the surface.

I gave them an awkward smile as Kyoya stood a little straighter, adjusting his glasses, "Are you okay, Mx. Tominaga? You seriously worried Tamaki, and most of the hosts. Even Haruhi and the twins are downstairs. Everyone's been waiting for you to wake up." Damn was he good at making me feel guilty. I nod, running a hand through my hair as Honey led me downstairs to where Haruhi was talking quietly with the twins and Tamaki paced anxiously. I felt bad for making everyone worry so much.

Still, the moment Tamaki saw me, he engulfed me in a hug as fast as he could. I chuckled, giving him an awkward pat on the back. He parted the hug and I looked to the rest of the group, deciding to put my main focus on Haruhi "Um.. I- uh.. get why you're here and all..." I pause, shaking my head, "Actually I don't. I don't get why you're here or why you'd even care, but... I..." I rub the back of my neck awkwardly, "I appreciate it. But I really should get back home. Thank you guys for your support and all... I guess." I mutter the last part and begin to walk away.

Kyoya stops me, putting a hand in front of me. "Please. Let me escort you," He says, offering his previously extended hand to me. I knew if I refused I'd look rude and, frankly I didn't care, but I accepted anyway to avoid anymore bad things today.

The voice in my head scoffed. "I don't understand why they'd even offer to help a pathetic git like you," It said. I could just hear the malice. I tried to shake it away as Kyoya led me to a limo right outside, opening the door for me. I didn't thank him and simply slid in, sitting near the front.

Instinctively, I began to stare out the window, completely zoning out everything around as I watched the scenery quickly pass by the tinted window. I sighed to myself. "He's talking to you, moron," The voice spoke, turning my attention to Kyoya. He seemed to be saying something but I didn't hear anything. We stared at each other for an awkward second before I spoke. "...What?" I asked, my face flushing in embarrassment.

He sighed, seemingly in frustration. I immediately felt bad. "I was saying that it was highly dangerous to be at an abandoned park at night. Alone. Do you even understand the dangers you put yourself in? You're lucky that we found you before anything, or anyone could get to you. I expected that you would have at least gotten sick, but you're quite lucky you didn't," His brow wrinkled. He didn't make any sort of eye contact with me, and if he did, it was hidden behind his glasses. I hugged my knees, timidly apologizing. This kind of care was so unlike him...

He sighed again, but this one was more out of concern. He glanced at me for a second before speaking quietly, "Just... don't do it again. You really worried Tamaki and the others." He turned to look out the window, ending the conversation there.

"You see how he didn't mention he was worried? Yeah, you don't deserve someone like him to worry about you. You're just another pawn in his game. He'd sacrifice you in an instant if he found you useless," The voice spoke, causing me to cringe and tears to form in my eyes as I turned back to the window as well. I blink the tears away as we pull up to my large house. The driver parks and quickly walks around the front to open the door for me. I glance over at Kyoya, but he doesn't seem to be showing any signs of moving any time soon, so I slip out of the door and thank the driver. He bows and heads back to the driver seat.

Sighing, I walk up to the door and walk in, being greeted by my worried mother and some of the maids. They all looked me over, anxiety eating away at them. I didn't understand why they were so worried, but I shrugged the thought away. I smiled tiredly, "Guys, I'm okay. Things just ran a little late with a friend and I had to stay there. I'm okay, I promise." They all sighed in relief as the maids went back to work knowing I was okay. My mother hugged me close.

"I was really worried about you, love," She whispers. I gently hug her back, rubbing small circles on her back to comfort her. "I know, mom. But it's okay, I promise. I'm okay," I whisper back, trying my best to be convincing. She parted the hug a bit, just to hold me out at arms length, and gave me a small smile. "Good," Was all she said before kissing my forehead and walking off.

I sighed, sinking to my knees when I got to my room. It was only a few moments before Sapphire was right in front of me, meowing in concern. I picked her tiny form up and gave her a soft kiss on the forehead. "I know, kitty. I'm sorry I wasn't here. I'm just sad and I did something... not smart," I explained to her, knowing she doesn't understand a thing I say. She looked at me with her beautiful heterochromatic eyes and mewed quietly.

After a second of cuddling, I sat Sapphire down and gave her food and water. Then, I sat on my bed and turned on my television to watch my favorite show and finally relax. I didn't really pay attention to the show, and instead read my brother's journal that he'd given me. It always made me cry but that's what I needed right now.

|A/n; I will be continuing this book in second person pov, using You, your, you're, and yours instead of I, me, my, etc. Also I apologize to those who have been subjected to my laziness and procrastination. It's currently 3am and I only recently got motivation to write. I cannot promise constant updates but I will try for at least once a month. Thank you. Also sorry for the constant sighing i this chapter XD|

^ Statement retracted because fuck past me.