15&BelowAverage

The Feels

Listen like seriously I like you and I don't even know why. I hardly know you, but you somehow managed to capture my attention. That night you asked me if I was trying to get to you, no I wasn't that's really how I talk to everyone so why did I blush? What made you different from the rest?

I know I act like a big flirt and not serious at all but the truth is that when it comes down to a real love relationship I'm shy as hell, but you don't know that and probably never will.

Sometimes I feel submissive, sometimes I feel dominant and lately all your calls seem sweeter and sweeter but your a huge a flirt too and treat everyone like that so I end up feeling happy all by myself like an idiot. And when I think like that, I feel like shit and just wanna cry. I want you to stay away but your like a drug I'm addicted to and can't quit.

I'm pretty jealous and possessive and have never went into a full on relationship.

I've dated, got cheated on, and kissed and dissed by people before so I'm not sure if I want to let my walls down, after all I haven't let them down in years so I haven't taken relationships seriously and I ended up hurting people in the end. So why do I want you to notice me?

If you really are my friend and care then stay away and distance yourself from me. Don't be so nice and don't call me and tell me nice things anymore because I'm a huge idiot and I'm scared to fall in love and get hurt at the end.