Tear In My Heart(Killua Zoldyck X Reader)COMPLETE

I'm Here

A/N:
I actually really like this chapter... sorry woah uhhhhh over 900 reads?! :0 I- woah thank you!!!

YOUR POV:

Hanzo made his way over to us but Killua stopped him. "Why did you loose on purpose?" Hanzo turned"on purpose?" He repeated"there should be a way for him to admit defeat for someone like you..."he trails off. Hanzo explained just reasoning but I didn't really care,Kurapika was up next against Hisoka.

"Kurapika,hang on." He stopped and turned to me"do a good job against the clown man." He simply nods and walks out to where Hisoka is.Kurapika and Hisoka fought for a little until Hisoka got close enough to Kurapika and said something. Kurapika froze before Hisoka said he had lost.

A few more people went before it was me and Killua's turn. "Good luck,Kil." I smile as he nods and walks to the opposite side of the room. "Ok! Begin!" The referee yells as I rush over to Killua. I pull out my pocket knife and go slash him,I mean it's not like I would ever kill him so it's not like it matters.

But before I could even land a hit on him he walks off. "Wah-HEY! GET BACK HERE!" Throws a hand up"I give up." I glare at him as the referee calls for the next set. I slide my knife back into my shoe and run over to Killua. "Killua,what the heck was that for?!" I ask crossing my arms"I didn't want to fight you." He simply says"we didn't even GET to fight! You at least could've landed a hit on me or even let me do the same to you!" He shook his head"there was no point."

"Huh?"

"There was no point because you are...uh...n-never mind. Just know that there was no reason to." I growl a little"you made me look like a fool!" He laughs a little and pokes the center of my head"you are a fool idiot." I swat his hand away"no I am not." He rolls his eyes but then Killua is called back out into the field.

"Oh that was fast. Alright,see ya Y/N." I wave and wish him luck before he walks out. I notice Killua is up against the purple guy(HAHAHAH the man behind the slaughter). I don't even know his name...

"BEGIN!"

"It's been a while a Killua." Killua doesn't move and only stares at him,I watched the man take out his pins and then he became more human like. Killua moved one of his feet back"Illumi?!" Killua asked in shock. Illumi had long black hair and void eyes that made me uneasy.

"Then...mom and Milluki told me you stabbed them." My eyes widened"this is one of Killua's siblings." I said to myself"mom was crying. She was confused. After thinking for a while she called me and told me to follow you,in fear that you'd become a Hunter. To tell you the truth I also wanted a accreditation for my next work." Illumi says"I don't really want to become a Hunter. I just wanted to take the exam." Killua corrects"that's reassuring. Now I can talk more openly. You won't become a Hunter,because you were meant to be a killer. You are just a puppet. You have no desire,you get happy when someone dies. You are just as father and I taught you. What were you expecting from becoming a Hunter?"

"Becoming a Hunter isn't what lead me here. But there are things I'd like to have." Killua states"no there is nothing." Illumi backfires"YES THERE IS!"

"And then tell me,what do you want?"

Killua stays silent.

"Well?"

More silence.

"There is! I-I...I want to become Gon's friend and Y/N's l-lover." I felt my heart speed up at this as my cheeks burned. D-Did he just say that?!

"I'm done with being a killer. I want to have fun with normal kids." Killua finishes"that's impossible. You can't have friends nor a lover. The only judgement you'll be able to make is if you get to kill your target or not. That what you were taught. You're amazed by Gon and intrigued by Y/N. This has nothing to do with them." Illumi states"th-that's false..."

"The longer you stay around those two the more you will want to kill them. Because you are a natural born killer." I felt myself becoming upset with Illumi,I want to kill him right now. He has no reason to treat his brother like that!

Leorio tried to interfere but then Illumi turned to look at him. Illumi then glanced at me,sending fear into me. "Isn't that a shame. The others have already fallen...I guess the only thing to do now is kill both Gon and Y/N." Illumi then takes out his pins"killers don't need friends because they only hold them back. I suppose I shall start with Gon seeing as he'd be an easier target." Illumi starts to walk off"where is he?"

The referee comes over but Illumi only sends his pins into him. I watched almost everyone head for the exit to block it,I turned to Killua who was sweating badly and a little shaking.

"Did you hear that Killua? If you don't win against me then I will kill both Gon and Y/N. Will you be able to fight for friendship,love? No." Illumi makes his way back to Killua"they don't matter. The only thing that matters is if you can defeat me or not. You already know the answer. 'If I use my strength,I can defeat my brother. If you feel you can't defeat him,don't confront him.' I was the one who told you that,yes?"

Killua took a step back and started to shake a lot and I noticed that his breathing got unstable. He was going into a panic attack. "Don't move." Illumi says"if you move I will take it as you want to fight. There's only one way to stop me,you understand?" Illumi reaches his hand out for Killua,but he only glanced at him in fear.

That's something else I thought Killua would never show-fear.

"Don't forget,if you don't confront me then your friends will die."

Leorio tried to encourage Killua to fight,but it's not like it mattered. The boy couldn't hear him.

"I-I...I lost." Killua quietly says.

"Ah I feel better now!" Illumi drops his hand and walks over to Killua and grabs a hand full of his hair and says something to him. Though it was to quiet for me to hear.

Illumi made his way off and I glared at him the whole time. I was tempted to go out to Killua and tell him he was ok but before I knew it Leorio's fight was up.

But once the referee said to begin Killua shot glanced up. I noticed that blood lust was in his eyes. He shot his hand up and went threw the chest of 'enemy'.

The man fell to the ground as the room fell silent. Killua looked at the body for a split second and then walked out the door knowing he was disqualified.

"KILLUA! WAIT!" I yelled running after him"KILLUA!" The boy stopped walking in the middle of open hallway. "Killua,it's ok. I'm here. We can get threw this together,I believe in you." I took a step closer"but did you really mean what you said in there? About wanting me to be your lover?"

Silence.

I took another step forward and placed my hand onto his shoulder"because Killua I feel that same w-"I then felt pain surge threw my cheek. "Leave me alone."

It happened so fast that I didn't have time to process it.

Something else I thought Killua would never do is slap me.