I Forgive You ( Avengers Love Story)

Chapter 5 As Time Passes

Sarah sat on the floor of her white and yellow bathroom. She rested her head on her for-arm and breathed deeply. Sarah squeezed her eyes shut and grabbed her hair back as another round of puke came up. Shoot me now. The only thing she could think about. Last night Sarah found herself in this same bathroom, sitting and waiting to know the truth. As it turns out, the truth was ugly. Sarah was pregnant. The idea baffled her. How did this happen? She only had sex once in the past few months. Just that one time with...Tony.

FLASHBACK!

Siting on his bed she crossed her legs and leaned back on her hands. Tony smirked. "I knew you wanted me." Sarah closed her eyes and shook her head softly. "No..I don't want you Tony, If I did I would already have you" She looked into his mind to see his imagination taking over. Sarah rolled her eyes and extended her hand, scrunching her finger in means to bring him to her. Sarah was attracted to Tony, she wouldn't deny it. Even though she was attracted to the others as well, she knew he would be the easiest to go to. In the end she knew he would be the one least likely to get to attached. She didn't love Tony, and she was pretty sure he didn't love her. What Sarah did know is that she they didn't have to. All they needed was each others company. Tony smirked as Sarah leaned further back on his bed. Slowly he presented himself on top of her, leaning down to kiss her gently. Sarah saw hesitation in his eyes, but it was gone as quick as it came.

Reality...

Sarah didn't see the Avengers very often anymore. They called her, and she visited their tower when she could, but this was to much. Sarah could fight off Aliens and Gods, she could handle bombs, and was an expert at saving lives, but she in no way was capable of raising a child. Forget the fact that she has had very little experience with children in general, but shes always on the move, always getting shot at, or threatened. How could she be so selfish as to bring up a child into her mess of a life. Sarah, as much as she would like to give up her job, leave the spying, and killing, behind her, knew she couldn't. Not only because they probably wouldn't let her, but because she has tried. She quit, she ran, but Sarah was empty. Every time she listened to the news or saw some act of violence she wanted to be the one called on to help. Who was she to bring a child in the world, who would hardly know their mother, and if they did, tear their hair out with worry because they don't know if she would come home. How selfish could she be. Then again how selfish would it be to not give him or her a chance with someone else? But who? Tony..the man could hardly take care of himself. Adoption agency..or strangers? Give something she carried within her for months, and hand it over to someone she may never see again. There are people who do not have the ability to have children and want nothing more than for someone to help by giving up their child. Sarah, even for them, knew she couldn't do it. There she goes again, being selfish.

Back in Asgard... Just because

Loki paced his room in Anger. Today Loki would be returning to Earth with Thor. He would be returning without his powers. His so called father had restricted him to solitary confinement the past months, but apparently that wasn't enough. Now he was to be taken to earth to live like a human. Loki scoffed at the idea. He would never be compared to such a low level of life. None the less he had no choice in the matter. His belongings were being pack as he paced. Thor of course, wanting to go to Earth was ready days ago. He wondered how the rest of the avengers would react with his return. Loki smirked at the idea of running into the the blond woman he met. He would never tell his brother, or anyone for that matter, but he was slightly fond of her. She perspective was different compared to most of the other humans he had met. The simple fact that she declared forgiveness to him was intriguing.

Thor smiled as he gathered himself at the portal that would take him back to earth. He was glad his brother would be joining him this time, in a state that would not mean trying to kill each other. When his father decalred that Loki would come with him to earth, and be stripped of his powers as well, Thor could see the look of anger in his brothers eyes. Thor knew though, that if Loki could take the time to grasp earths ways, he might learn to enjoy it. He would not forget to also see the small blond that was so kind to Loki. Thor admired her for her demand when it came to seriouse matters, and kindness when it came to personal ones. It brought a smile to his face to think of it. Loki also seemed to find her intriguing. It was a good thought that Loki might have at least one friendly face to greet him on earth. He knew there would not be many anywhere else.