boundary lines [MINSUNG FF]

chapter 5 - how do you smile?

[Minho P.O.V]

On this lonely night i was walking back home alone with blank expression on my face, even the step i took feel heavy and the cold wind blew around me doesn't help me anymore like it used to do. I don't know what gotten into me, maybe it's because I'm feeling tired from faking my own happiness in front of others.

The street is quieter than usual, somehow it's bringing me a peaceful vibe around my body. I was on the street stair and almost home when my phone suddenly ringing loudly ;at first i want to ignore it and just goes home to sleep but i stopped my feet right away when i saw who's calling me.

'Sister 1'

I immediately rejected her call ; i was so wrong if i thought that will stop her. She keep sending me tons of message without any break

Sister 1

'pick up the phone'

'I want to discuss something with you'

'You really gonna continue being this stubborn?!'

My phone keep receiving messages and calls from her non stop. This girl really don't know how to give up ; my mind when blank. I'm scared.. I'm scared I'm gonna break into pieces again if i give her a chance to get inside my life. It's took me so long.. so much energy to become the happy version of me right now. I can't let her just break me like she usually do, but at some point i realized she still my family.. we're blood related. What if she really sincerely want to help me? I'm tired. My body and mental is both giving up on me right now. Without thinking much i finally accepted her phone call

“he--”

“what the fuck do you think you're doing?!”.. ahh I'm so wrong when i think she gonna change. For once.. i want to meet the nice version of her.

“Let me be so fucking honest with you right now. It's already 3 am and I'm so tired. I'm so tired with your shitty attitude.. with your voice.. work is stressing me too so i will really FUCKING appreciate it if you left me alone” i said annoyingly ; she didn't reply so the first thing i want to do right now is hanging up this stupid phone call when suddenly i heard she laughing. Is this girl okay?

“You? Work? What kind of work can you do? Cleaning some old man ass?” Thump! My heart break just like that ; to be honest I'm very sensitive when it's come to people bringing up my education level. I know.. i know I only graduate highschool. But out of all people in this world she has the least right to tell me this. Because of her, I has to give up college. If she... If only she show up when mom is still here.. wouldn't it be nice? Why must everything on this world hurt me?

My leg just give up on me right now ; i squat down and close my face with my right hand.. I still can hear her voice.. her cold voice

“I don't care about you. And i never will. But right now, your mom house has to be paid. The landlord keep bugging me so you better find out a way with your stupid work--”