I never wanted to get over 18
Always scared of being on my own
Never had to fend for myself
Never had to fight on my own
Now I'm sitting here nearly 20
My head screams „I want to die“
And I am scared
Why to I feel like I am not right
Like I should have died
Like my life should've been over years ago
In a state of panic writing what hurts me
Trying not to give in to this familiar feeling
