I'm not okay ( I promise) Frerard School au

I'm not okay, I PROMISE

Frank's POV

I don't know what was wrong with me. I'm not sick or anything, I just....I feel like Gerard is taking advantage of me, because I forgive him so fast. He did say he was sorry but maybe he just knows I'll forgive him. Maybe I shouldn't forgive him so quickly, it won't hurt anyone. Right?

I wake up cuddled up to Gerard, I smile to myself, he is so cute-but I can't help but think he's just taking advantage of me still. I decide to wake Gerard up so we won't be late for school.
"Hey Gee, wakey- wakey" I say
Gerard opens his eyes slowly smiling when we make eye contact and I can't help but smile back. "Morning Frankie" he says smiling more.
"Morning" I say back smiling wide.
Gerard sat up with me, kissing my cheek. Why can't I just be mad at him? Oh idk maybe because I love him too much for that.

______time skip after arriving to school_________

Like every school day me and Gerard separate so people don't know we're dating, which sucks. I know I told Gerard I would wait till he's ready but I can't wait forever. I just want to show affection to him every moment I get. At least Lyn-z left him alone after letting her jock friends give me a beating. I know Gerard apologized but it still hurt, physically and mentally. But at least I don't have to tell Lyn-z to back the fuck off my man. Or maybe I do have to tell Lyn-z to fuck off- because what do I see, that's right Lyn-z kissing the hell out of my boyfriend-or Gerard. Why isn't he pushing her back? I think I'm gonna be sick. But before I do I walk up to Gerard and Lyn-z. I pull Lyn-z off of Gerard and he just looks at me apologetically, I just stare blankly at him with tears stinging my eyes, something sparked in me, I smack him hard then turn to walk away. Gerard takes a hold of my shoulder and turns me around, "Hey Frankie I'm sorry, please just forg-"
"Shut up! Sorry isn't gonna work this time. Your just taking advantage of me! I know you are." I snap, Gerard just looks down at me hurt. He stays silent so I'm guessing I was right, for once in my life I'm right.
"Frank, I'm not taking advantage of you, I promise. What you saw- I know I didn't push her away but she threatened me saying she would make the jocks beat me up" he said sounding scared. But I just get more angry, I can cry later.

"So when you knew the jocks were gonna beat me up, you just let it happen? What the fuck! I trusted you.
Why- you know what never mind it makes total sense now"

"Frankie,"
"No, I don't wanna hear it. Your just thinking about yourself that's all you care about you. You were afraid of getting beaten so that's why you didn't want to go public. You don't care about me, all you want from me, well all you mostly do with me is fuck" I say, people watching 'oooed'
Then I saw Mikey and Ray, Bob behind them watching intensely.

"That's not true Frankie"
"Oh really- hah sounds pretty accurate" I say then turn to leave again, people backing away.

Time skip———-

The day dragged on, my head hurt from all the crying. I don't know if me and Gerard were still together- probably not. I decide to walk to the park. I don't want to see or talk to Gerard- or anyone for that matter.
I sit on a swing in the empty park, breathing in deeply until I start crying again. I don't stop the tears this time, I just let it happen. I cry until I can't anymore. It was getting late so I decided to get back to the house, as I open the door I'm met with Ray, Mikey, Bob and of course Gerard's faces all looking at me worried and sad looks coming from all of them but mostly relief. I just shut the door behind me and go to the spare room. Of course the spare bedroom door doesn't have a lock. So of course they all come in except for Gerard.

"Hey Frank we saw what happened, we're so sorry" Ray says.
"It's not your guy's fault, it was mine- mine because I trusted someone with my heart too quickly, mine because I forgive to easily, mine because I'm easy to take advantage of." I say, I would probably be crying right now if I didn't already at the park.
"It's not your fault. My brother is just dumb sometimes" Mikey says sternly. "No he's not, don't say that Mikes" I say, even though I'm mad at Gerard I still love him. I just hope he loves me.
"Guys I really just want to sleep, okay" I say yawning afterwards.
They all nod saying goodnight.

Mikey's POV

I can't believe Gerard did something so stupid. He hurt Frank. He said he never would but all he's done lately is hurt him.
"Do you think it's gonna be awkward preforming now?" Bob asked
"My brother just hurt our best friend, and all you care about is preforming awkwardly" I snap at him.
"Hey chill we are all worried about Frank, let's not get In a fight about it" Bob reasoned Ray staying silent. If you haven't noticed Ray and Frank are best friends so he's more worried about Frank than me and Bob.
"Can I go talk to Frank?" Gerard asked,
"Sure, but he's probably a sleep"

Gerard's POV

I'm such an idiot, I hate myself with how I deal with stuff and how I hurt Frank. I love him, but he probably won't believe me when I say it.
I walk in to the spare room to see Frank staring at the ceiling, until he catches sight of me, and looks away hurt. How do I do this? I don't want him getting angry at me-you know what stop thinking about yourself, Frank is more important.
"Frankie, I know I hurt you, I know your angry, and I just want to say-I am sorry, I know that's not what you wanted to hear, but I am-hah I love you Frank I promise I do" I say, tears stinging my eyes, Frank sits up and looks at me through his eyelashes.
I see a tear roll down his cheek and that's when I start crying. "I love you so much Frankie I-" My sentence is stopped by a sob, that's when Frank gets up and hugs me crying as well. I hold him close to my chest, scared to let him go.
"I love you too Gee, but I'm not gonna forgive you yet. I want to trust you again first" he says looking up at me.
I just nod, "I understand Frankie, I'm so so sorry love" I say starting to cry again. "Hey, don't cry baby, I'm here to stay I love you" Frankie says a few tears escaping his eyes.
We look at each other smiling, giggling a little. Frank wipes the tears off my cheeks and I do the same to him.

He then kisses me and I kiss back. This kiss is way better than that hoe's.
(I don't hate Lyn-z)))

"Do you want to go to bed Frankie?"
"Yeah, let's get to your room, and I demand cuddles" Frank says, I giggle at what he says.
As me and Frank cuddle up to each other I keep telling him how much I love him. I know it's gonna take a while for him to gain my trust and to forgive me, but I'll wait as long as it takes-as long as we're together I'm happy.

"I love you so much Frankie"
"I love you as much Gee" he says before we kiss slowly. After a while we end up sleeping in each others arms refusing to let each other go.
I will make this better my Frankie I promise.