3AM Thoughts

15th May 2020/ 10:37 pm

This thoughts normally start later, I guess today is special. I've been thinking a lot about my future lately, I'll have to choose what i want to "continue learning" in high school. My school offers from 1st grade till 12th grade (senior year) so i don't have to worry about changing schools, but because of that, the options are every limited. There are 3 "courses": Humanity (history, geography, etc...) science (bio, physics, etc...) and arts. 

Right of the bat, arts is not an option, even though i am quite fond of arts, my parents will never let me pick it. It's kinda a stereo typical thing, people that follow arts are less likely to succeed in life, i know that's not true but... what can i do...

Ever since i was in 3rd grade, I've always wanted to be like my sister and mother, go to "humanity" then take law and finishing of with applying to the government to be a translator (or something else). I've always looked up to them, thats why i had no doubts, but recently, i found out that i have a strong passion for science, biology to be exact, but in order to take bio at my school, you'll need all the order classes i'll have to attend all the other classes as well, to be honest i'm only worried about MathA (different courses have different levels of math A, B or MAC, with A being the hardest) but i'm really bad at math. 

I've spoken to my sister about this, she told me to follow my desires but to keep in mind that this will directly affect my future. She told me that i could even repeat a year just to try out if i wanted, but she knows me well, she knows i can't repeat, so her last advice was to go to "humanity" because im not bad any of the subjects (im also not good), so i wouldn't waste my time.

My family has a strong advantage, we speak 4 languages fluently, which is something people look for when they employ someone.

I'm still going to have a talk with my teachers about my future, so this is not final. All my friends will go to science, which will leave my alone in a class. but oh well, what can i do, we all got oour lives to live and plan, maybe, just maybe, i'll be able to catch up on 2 years of math that i miss by not studying and end up following my desires of bio.

END: 11:02 pm

-Alice