I'm baking some cupcakes for tomorrow, it's my friend's birthday and even though we can't celebrate it with everyone, I'm distributing the cupcakes so we could do a online party for him.
while baking, I'm rewatching "Princess Tutu" (8/10 anime series would recommend) it's basically about ballet. I've always wanted to dance ballet, it was what every girl wanted when they were kids, but i was a FAT kid growing up and my parents didn't think that ballet wasn't something for me.
I don't regret not knowing how to dance ballet, but I'm a little mad at my parents that they didn't force me to train something serious for a long period of time. I'm a really average person, it's not a bad thing but, i do love the attention i get when i can do something other can't do.
I'm so average it hurts, the only way i standout it's at parties, you know "they irrelevant girl at school actually drinks and smokes a LOT", I'm not happy about it, but i get what I get. I know it's wrong since I'm only 15 (2020), i started to drink and smoke in 5th grade at the gathering my friends and I did, i stopped smoking but something happened and i started again (maybe I'll cover it in another story), but I'm quitting again, I'm almost 2 months in without smoking and 1 month without drinking, i believe in myself.
Maybe I'll start exercising more, maybe get a "perfect body", i really want to...
END- 01:49am
-Alice
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