how am I supposed to feel?
Just
Am I supposed to be happy
Content
Confident
That the love of my life
Had days
To come up with one compliment
And couldn't
But yeah
I'm the asshole
Because her mental health is bad
So a one line compliment for a post is too much
"It's not about the compliment"
But that's all there is
I'm just
That impossible to compliment
That impossible to love
God I hate myself
Why have I waited so long to realize I shouldn't be here
I don't belong here
This world never wanted me here
I need to leave
I need to let go of all of this
Everything is too much
Everything is crashing around me
God I'd rather be dead
Why can't I just be dead
I just
Hate this
I want out
I need out
This is overwhelming
Life is overwhelming
I wasn't cut out for this
I should've died forever ago
Why stick through it if only pain is on the other side
I say kill me into the void
But am too exhausted to take the task into my own hands
It'd be so easy
So easy
But it feels so hard
I'm lost
I want to refresh
To start over
To up and move
Or to die
Whatever it is
For it to not be what this is
I'm hated by everything and everyone
Including myself
Why stay?
Nobody would seriously care
Why stay?
YOU ARE READING
Ballad of a Broken Soul
PuisiI'm sad, so I write when I need it here's my pain, I suppose I hope one day I'll write of sunshine and I hope the same for you
