Broken Little Bird

Road to Recovery

*Keelee's POV*

You were just a small bump unborn for four months then torn from life.

Maybe you were needed up there but we're still unaware as why.

It wasn't even close to being fair that Ryan had been killed. I couldn't help but think that it was my fault. It had been five days since I lost my daughter, and I still haven't left my room. Liam has had buisness with the band, but whenever I see him, he's crying. Jena has been over a few times trying to tell me that everything would be alright, but her and I knew damn well that that was a lie. My daughter was dead, how was that alright? It just felt that life couldn't go on without Ryan. She could've grown up, fallen in love, and started a family. And I would have made it damn well impossible for her to have to live with the life that I had to live with. Even my childhood, I used to think that that was the worts time of my life, but now I knew that wasn't the case. If you've ever lost a child, you would know how I'm feeling. And seeing how crushed Liam was, made me feel worse. It was my fault. If he had someone else, someone that wouldn't have a miscarriage, this wouldn't have happened. I would've gotten up and left right then, letting him have someone else that deserved him come into his life. But I was too selfish. I knew that if I didn't have Liam, I wouldn't be stable, hell that was an understatment. I already didn't want to be alive, and I had Liam. If I left him, I would be dead within an hour. And I mean physically dead,because I'm pretty sure that my soul has already been crushed. Liam walked into the room, and for the first time he wan't in tears. I couldn't say the same about myself. I hadn't stopped crying since the docters office, I was suprised that it was possible to cry for that long. He came and layed down next to me, holding my convulsing body into his chest.

"You know Riee? We are going to be okay."

I looked up at him, and stopped crying. What?            

"What are you talking about Li?We lost her." I sobbed into his chest.

"I know hun, but we still have eachother. You see, the docter told me that I could've lost you too. He also said that it's not your fault. Ryan was needed up there. You can still have children and You know what? Ryan loves yoy. Remember how whenever you talked she would kick. She loved her mummy almost as muchy as I do."

He kissed my lips softly, and for the first time since Ryan died, I felt happy. And in that moment I knew that Liam was right. We were going to be okay. Liam took my left hand and slipped my promise ring off, sliding a much bigger ring on it. I gasped. "Liam!"

"Riee, this made me realize that I don't want to wait to call you my wife. I can't wait to make a family. Will you marry me?"

"Yes, Liam. Of course I will. I love you so much Li."