𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓑𝓸𝔂𝔃 𝓐𝓶𝓑𝔀

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[Timmies- Tell me why
I'm waiting]
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·✫✦ Juyeon✦✫·
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The time was 12:55 in the afternoon. Five minutes before the building open the doors to let out the children. Work has called....asking why I have been messing so many days. There's just so much going on....I can't explain it. The bell to the building rings as the children come out excited to finally be going home.

"Papa!"

I smile when I hear the small voice. She immediately runs to me latching on the my leg. I sigh when I notice that her hair is a mess than what it was like this morning. I kiss her head and take her backpack from her before grabbing her hand. We start the walk back to the apartment.

The excited three year old skips and points at all the things she passes by.

"So how was daycare bubba?"

"Funny."

At least her hearing is getting better. She's a happy three year old who can't help but be happy at the world around her. She is growing up with struggles without realizing it. She doesn't understand that I can't afford to give her new toys she wants. I can't give her anything she wants. I can't her the kids she deserves.

I look down at the three year old who plays with her ponytail.

"Bubba...you do know Papa loves you. Right?"

"Yeah! I love Papa too."

It starts to rain making me wish that at times like this I would've bought a car. I pick up the little girl and place my jacket over us as I run my way to the apartment building. Soon we're in the apartment. I should've checked the weather. I place her on the couch as I go to lock the door.

"Papa wet."

"I know Bubs. I'll get you a bath ready in a minute ok."

"Otay."

Soon she's clean and dry from the rain. I can't help but feel like there's something else. I watch as she plays with her bear on the carpet. There's a faint smile on my face but it's wiped away. She shouldn't have to go through this. It's my fault, not hers.

I lay in bed as she sleeps beside me. But before I could go to sleep there was a knock on the door. As soon as I opened the door Hyunjae walks in.

"Dude you haven't answered any of my calls. I have been worried."

"I was busy taking care of y/n."

"Oh...how is she."

"Her hearing is getting better and she's acting like she isn't even sick."

"She could possibly bet getting better."

"I'm not sure the doctor said it mostly like won't happen."

"He might be wrong who knows."

"I know. He knows a lot especially about her."

"So do you...you are her father after all."

"I'm not her father. Her father could buy her all the things she wants, have food on the table every night, not have his daughter getting sick because he has a car. I can't do that for her."

"You may not be able to do those things but you do love her and take care of her. You make her happy and she loves you."

"Yeah but it's not enough.....I want her to have a normal life....where she could have anything she wants without asking. Eat healthy food not take out. I want her to be healthy not sick. I want to be the best father for her but I can't."

There are no words exchanged....no words are said...but tears are shed. Tears that tell-all and show all. No one truly knows what he's feeling and no one could.

"Papa?"

She's the only one who could possibly know. She knows what her father is going through and tries to make it seems like she doesn't know for the sake of him. She knows that she's sick but she's still happy no matter what because her being happy cheers him up and makes him smile.

He picks her up and holds her close.

"Papa is so sorry."

She wipes away the tears from his face. She's just happy to be in his arms and stop his tears. She doesn't know why he's crying but she'll do anything to stop the tears. She doesn't notice the tears trailing down her face as she wipes away his.

"Don't cry ok.....papa is ok. Everything is going to be alright."

Those may seem useless and stupid to those listening but only these two can possibly know what they mean. Things may seem bad and horrible now but when we're together everything is going to be just ok.