The Last Sip

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Cloudy outside, sitting on the edge of bed, I bite my nails till jagged, anxiety dominates my rest day. Coughing, I reach painkiller for my throat on medical kit, consumes them in seconds. I don't know what kind of disease burden me, I won't figured out because I'm scared. Petrified to face doctor. Examining what happened against my pointless body, merely sending me shiver into my spines. I'm too coward to find out.

Drttt...

I discern in unintentional. Upon the name that I avoid arise on the screen. Clearing throat, I cough once in purpose make my sound seems okay to talk to him.

Lift up the phone on the last ringing as hear someone sighing. "Finally, why so long?"

" Sorry.." Only one word that comes out. I suppose to mention more valuable, however I couldn't. I merely unwanted.

"How is your college? Fine?" He states, attempting to control himself.

" I don't think so. I read another big metallurgy technique book, just kill my time." I walk towards drawer as grabs coke. "What about you? You said gonna empty your day for once?"

Ian chuckles, his voice creates my heart to flutter. "Uhmm, you are fast remember if  the matter involved to my promise."

Giggling, leaning my back against wall as take a sip. "Your promise always tempting."

Ian laughs, " Like what?"

"Travelling to south korea.." I try to search others, however find nothing. He never broke his promise.

"We go there after the graduation." Ian notes, unexpectedly he remebered, I thought he was tipsy when created that promise.

"Well, Lily.."He cuts as taking a deep breath.

"Hmm," I look down, waiting for him to continue his point. Tapping the arm sit as take another sip.

"So.. Is My lady still mad?" He inquires carefully.

I scratch my nape. Thinking towards his deed that makes me shrink of him. He could be gentle and sometimes opposite. Dreadful. I could sense sometimes his eyes turning onto narrow without accuse.

"Are you there?"

"Ya." I touch my neck whenever be petrified . His brutal sending me chiling effect abruptly as continues . "I'm not mad either."

Hearing a relief sigh, I stare into the ceiling, trying to relax against lying down on bed. " I'm so lament Lily, you know I love you more than I take care myself, hoping you're okay."

That words again. How come I could unforgive  him? Regardless I love him as I need him. I don't have someone except him as he does the same.

"I know.. I love you too." I smile, my burning cheek disturbs me.

"Akhh, glad to hear that, it's been so long." I could hear his back leaning towards driver seat quite harshly. Probably his tense has evaporated.

I curse, when my cheeks heat yet, truthfully I am not a sort of girl who easy blushing, however Ian the one who does.
"I'm stolid, not type of good at confessing."