Lost Stars
'Please don't see just a boy caught up in dreams and fantasies
Please see me reaching out for someone I can't see
Take my hand let's see where we wake up tomorrow
Best laid plans sometimes are just a one night stand
I'd be damned Cupid's demanding back his arrow
So let's get drunk on our tears and'
It was another boring day for me. No work today so I'm stuck here at home. Watching tv with a show I don't even know. Hay. What a boring day for me. I wonder kung kamusta na kaya siya.
Mom:
You should visit her. It's your free day today diba?
"Pfft. Please, ma. Give me a break." I said as I closed my messages app.
Bakit pati free day ko kailangan ko pang ibigay sa kanya? We're not even real. Everything is just a game. Kalokohan lang lahat ng to.
'God, tell us the reason youth is wasted on the young
It's hunting season and the lambs are on the run
Searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?'
"Tss. Makakain na nga lang."
I stood up from the couch and went to the kitchen to grab some food. Anyway, malapit naman na ang dinner. And I'm kind of hungry na din. Hindi pala ako nakapaglunch. Nakalimutan ko nanaman. As I wait for the microwave to stop, I checked on my phone to see updates about her. Online siya actually. Her name's been flashing on my phone everytime she tweets. Napapangiti na lang ako. Halatang masaya siya ngayon.
'Who are we? Just a speck of dust within the galaxy?
Woe is me. if we're not careful turns into reality
Don't you dare let our best memories bring you sorrow
Yesterday I saw a lion kiss a deer
Turn the page maybe we'll find a brand new ending
Where we're dancing in our tears and'
I was startled when I heard the doorbell ringing. Napakunot ang noo ko as I looked at the clock by the countertop. It's almost 7pm, sino naman ang bibista saken? Ugh. I hope not one of my sisters. Okay pa kung si kuya. Wag lang talaga mga kapatid kong babae. I walked towards the door saka ako sumilip through the peephole and was surprised to see who it was. I opened it and she greeted me with a smile.
"Wyn?" I said.
"Hi, Moe. Musta?" she said. "Pwede pumasok? Or baka andyan si Janine?"
"Huh? W-wala. Mag-isa lang ako." sabi ko and opened the door wider. "Come in."
She walked passed me saka siya luminga sa buong condo unit ko. This is the first time na may bumisita dito na isa sa mga kabarkda ko. I mean, madalas kasi sa labas na kami nagkikita-kita or sa bahay ni Rocco. Pero they never tried coming here.
"Sit down." sabi ko as I offered the couch to her. She sat down and I sat on the couch opposite her. Matagal bago siya nagsalita. She just kept on staring at the whole condo.
"Nakapunta na ba si Janine dito?" she asked. Umiling ako sa kanya. "Really?"
"Yes. Although gusto niya magpunta pero lagi kong sinasabi na wag na." I answered.
Tumango siya saka muling tumingin sa mga display. Napangiti agad siya when she saw one framed picture.
"Kaya pala eh." she said after. "Kaya pala ayaw mong papuntahin si Janine dito kasi may picture pa din dito si Julie. Okay. Gets ko na. Galing mo ha." she laughed. Napayuko na lang ako saka lihim na natawa.
'God, tell us the reason youth is wasted on the young
It's hunting season and the lambs are on the run
Searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars, trying to light up the dark?'
"Uhm... What brought you here?" I asked her after. Alam ko namang she has other reasons eh.
"Alright. Moe hindi na ko magpapaliguy-ligoy pa. Ano ng plano mo sa Tikis? It's been months simula nang di ka na nakikisama sa amin. Moe, alam ko that you and Julie have a problem. Pero sana di mo naman dinadamay ang barkada." aniya. Napayuko ako saka napakamot sa ulo.
