"He raped me," Sophie said crying passionately.
Kim placed a hand on Sophie's shoulder trying to comfort her, but Sophie not needing it brushed her hand off.
Kim wrote in a piece of paper that she was sorry, that she didn't mean to bring past memory and hurt her, that if she knew it will hurt she wouldn't have asked her the question.
Breaking the silence, Sophie said "Your the only person who knows this about my life except Fiona,so please don't tell anyother person".
"Yeah,I know," Kim said feeling sad.
"But no matter what, I don't allow anyone to insult my parents, not even if I insult them in front of anybody. They are my parents, not theirs so they have no right," She said gushing
"Right?" Kim asked smiling.
"I wonder how people feel when insulting people's parents and they will even be laughing saying they are joking," she said surprised.
"I don't know, it use to annoy me, thank God I haven't insulted anybody's parents," Kim said proudly.
"But how old were you when your dad raped you?" Kim asked.
Sighing,"Well maybe one or two years, l can't remember, I was so small. I can't actually remember when I was small, except from this and the day my mum died." Sophie said, immediately the bell for dinner rang.
"Come let's go for dinner," Kim said standing up.
As they were going to the refectory on their way they met their classmates Flossie, Julie and Susie which opened up a new conversation. Then Kim and Sophie went ahead of the group.
"I do believe I'm the one who killed my mom," Sophie told Kim looking at her.
"Why, do you say that?" Kim asked turning to look at the girl who was teaching her about life more than she knew.
"Cause on the day she died, I was talking to her trying desperately to tell her something but she kept requesting and demanding for water. I told her until she listens to what I had to say I wouldn't get her anything, she turned her face the other way and died, I do think if I gave her the water she would have been alive but another side of me says she still would have died," Sophie said.
Kim looked at her friend thinking of what to say to her but not finding the right words.
"I get angry with God for taking everything from me, I classify myself as an orphan cause it isn't as if I have a father. He has never contributed to my sister and I school fees or feeding money and you expect me to call him father."
"Now I understand why you talk about him with hatred. I'm sorry," Kim said.
"Please don't be, it has made me more tough, that is why I don't let people in my heart easily."
"Just like Francis," Kim said.
"Yeah, just like Francis," she said smiling.
"But you love him it's just that you are scared," Kim said.
"I keep guys at arm's length, I like only two teachers but when they get old enough to be my father I will shift from them".
"Girl, you are strong, I now understand you more. If I find out Francis is playing you I will kill him", Kim said.
"Now you know why I said if I find out he's deceiving me I will kill him immediately. I will never wish for anyone to go through with what I'm dealing with."
"Who knows in your family that you were raped?" Kim asked.
"Nobody, I haven't told anyone except from you and Fiona, I'm scared to tell anybody from my family cause I feel stupid that I couldn't do anything to stop the rape", she said crying.
"You were just two, you couldn't do anything", Kim said reassuringly.
"I know, sometimes I wish I could die and I'm not actually really scared of death like that. I actually wish I could die, I can't really take a look at myself without feeling I should hurt myself cause it's all my fault".
"It isn't and don't think of dying cause people need you", Kim said.
"And who are those?" Sophie asked.
"Your sister, friends and me," she said.
"What do you need me for?"
"You are really teaching me things and how can I forget Francis need you seriously," she said teasingly.
"Who told you that?" Sophie asked laughing.
"Hmmmm, so you don't know, well you better know it now. He could die of heart break. But girl you're strong all this things happened to you and you go on like you have your life excatly how you want it," she said with all atom of seriousness.
"I have my life planned out, I'll be successful and my dad will suffer when I become rich," Sophie said entering the refectory while greeting her Matron and sitting down.
After dinner, her classmate Chrissie walked up to Sophie and told her to sweep the refectory, after doing that she went to the hostel, had her bath and layed on her bed.
"Thank you," Sophie said to whoever could hear her, if it was God, mum or dad and drifted off to sleep.
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Literatura Feminina"Well, that isn't really why I hate him, I hate him cause of what he did to me. I can't say it." "I knew you wouldn't finish it, I was praying in my mind that you'll tell me everything,so I can understand you better,"Kim said feeling sad. Laughing...
