Matched on Tinder

Shavan blooms

Shavan was blooming like a rose bush day by day. Its almost been three months Shavan and Chidiya were talking to each other. It took them a month to come on WhatsApp from Tinder but then only a split second to go on calls. Now they were more comfortable with calls. Texting was fine but listening to her voice especially scoldings for not having meals on time, working overtime were what made Shavan feel cared. Care, that's what he has been missing since years.

Shavan was blooming like that dandelion in Mrs Woods' garden, in his neighborhood. He had been enjoying Chidiya's company, their almost daily talks, her sass especially her affection. Yes she was very much affectionate towards him which made him fear he might fall in love with her. He had a nagging feeling of guilt that he was cheating on Sumo and leading on Chidiya. He has to stop himself from falling for Chidiya. He realized and deleted Tinder from his phone. Then blocked Chidiya on WhatsApp. He could not hurt the poor girl just because he was stuck in his bloody past. He took that impulsive decision.

Eric came to his apartment next Friday to call him for their old classmate's party only to see a broken Shavan. He had been miserable since he stopped talking to Chidiya. It was hurting him as much he hurt her. He had already blocked her and was ignoring her calls. Seeing Eric he broke down into tears.

Shavan? What have happened to you? Did something happen?

I'm not talking to her. She is not talking to me.

Who?

Chidiya

Chi --diya? Who's that?

Duffer! The girl you matched me with on Tinder. We have been talking for months now and I kind of started liking her or may be falling for her. I stopped before she also falls for me.

Why Shavan? Don't tell me you can't move on because you still have feelings for your best friend from India.

Yes.

Oh Lord Shavan! what  do I do with you?

Get me a bag of chips.

Youuuu! Ah! Don't try to change the topic. Was it even love that you had with Sumo?

What is love Eric?

You tell me. You claim to be in love for almost 12 years now.

Its 13 years, 7 months and 6 days. I realized my love for her when I was ready to giveaway my life just to save her in return. Love is not just a feeling Eric its worship. Mine in unrequited I know. She would never love me. May be she is no more the way I imagine her to be. May be I'm just in love with my imagination. For me love is as I imagine her every morning here with me. I arise with her thoughts and shut off with them. Its been like this for years. I kept falling in love with our memories together everyday a little more.

What about Chi-diya then?

Since Chidiya came in my life I've been roaming around some mix thoughts. In my imagination Chidiya is not some other girl but the same one with whom I fell in love years ago. May be again just a illusion but true as much it can be. I kept thinking about her all day and night and you know what- the similarities triggered it. I have realized I'm falling for another girl thinking of her as my true love and one day when reality will strike me both of us would be hurt.

A/n:- Heyya! As per promise update is here. I gave you an insight into the mind of Shravan. Expecting your thoughts on the chapter.

Love,
Zindagi