Delilah's reign

taking the leap

Stepping out of the hall and into the cold night breeze helped bring down what felt like a heavy rock on my head.

"Marriage?" To that weird overly serious shit head?
Never gonna happen...

But as minutes passed and the night grew colder I couldn't help but wonder what the faith of my family's cartel would be if I didn't agree to this marriage.

Times like this I wished my mom was with me, with her advice that always seem to fix everything
But I knew she wasn't with me anymore and that none of the things I had hoped for would happen.

My mom was gone and my dad couldn't get over it... it was all up to me to stand for my family's cartel and I wasnt about to let them down....

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Seconds turned to minutes and then I decided to go back inside
Let them all know I had agreed to marrying Alonzo... even if with every ounce of my being I wanted to say no.

I brushed my way passed the crowd of overly perfumed women, and egotistic men... walking straight down the hall where my table was...

As I approached the cluster of men talking and took my seat, my newly built confidence began to rise.

" I accept the proposal to marry Alonzo"

The moment those words left my mouth it felt like a part of me had left too.... saying those words meant I had just defined my entire future in less than 30 minutes.
As usual Alonzo's facial expression didn't change... it was almost as if he didn't posses any emotions
The last I heard him talk was when he told Ethan I bumped into him.

But whatever, this marriage was just another business decision what did he care.

The ride home from the gathering was incredibly silent with me thinking of various ways my life was about to be ruined because of this marriage
As the car came closer to the mansion i couldnt stop all the estatic childhood memories from coming back... a small  smile played on my lips until i heard the car door open.
Walking into the house felt different I felt sadder than I ever was,I felt bubbling emotions that I wished would just go away but I knew they wouldn't be so easy to get rid of.

I walked up the stairs heading to my room until I heard a loud sound like someone had dropped something.

"Dad? Are you in there?"
When I got no reply I decided to walk further
And when I did I saw my dad sitting on the floor with a broken photo frame of my mom.
At that moment I realised I made the best decision to marry Alonzo.

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I looked at the alarm clock at the left side of my bed, it was past 10pm... I wondered why my mom hadn't come to give her good night kiss yet...
I could hear some muffled noises coming from the living room
I walked down the stairs until I heard my mom's voice

"Butterfly go back to your room, mommy's gonna be there soon" she said with fear evident in her eyes

"Shut the fuck up or I'll blow her head off just as I'm about to do to yours"

"What do you want?, who are you?"

I stood there frozen at the sight of a masked man holding a gun to my mom's head, she looked so scared and I couldn't do anything but watch....

I heard the gun cock and I knew at that moment that I was never gonna see my mom again

The sound of the gun going off was all I could hear.... I ran to my mother's side kneeling down crying and begging for her to wake up. Her blood flowing on the grownd and on my strawberry pyjamas