Can We Be One? ( LokixReader )

4. I'm here for you now.

"Loki, are you afraid of a little thunder?"

"I'm not overly fond of what follows."

They got up from the bed to look at the window, as soon as y/n saw a blonde with a hammer she knew what Loki meant. It was Thor, God of Thunder, another option that maybe knew more about y/n's mother. Excitedly she clapped her hands, "This is great, to speak of good timing!" She looked in the direction of Loki, who was rather unemotional.

" What's the matter?"

"Nothing, go to Thor, I know you want to talk to him." He said as seriously as he could.

"Are you sure? Because -"

"Y/n does it look like I care? Just go already, I'll be in my chambers if you need me, but don't come bothering me for nothing," he said harshly just like his old self would. 

And without another word she left his room, sad because of the hard words he had spoken. But that didn't matter much right now, she set her mind back on Thor who was now entering the building.

LOKI'S POV

Of course I cared, but I couldn't show it, could I? I don't want to seem weak towards her, but now that my brother is back I felt upset. He always took everything from me, willingly or not, he did. I may have been my mother's favorite, but she was always there for him, while father was only there for his precious son Thor. And just before his death he told me for the first time, this time I saw that he meant it, that he loved me. But now that I got to know y/n I feel afraid, afraid to hurt her because I'm not worthy of anyone, I've done bad things and others see me as a monster, in which I can't blame them. No matter how hard I try to change, I'll always be Loki, the God of Mischief, a monster. 

2 stressful hours later

I've spent the last 2 hours pacing, back and forth, again and again. Why didn't she come back, I really thought she'd be back here in half an hour. Well, I probably just hoped that but I knew Thor didn't have much more information than I did, so what were they doing? Maybe it was because I told her not to bother me, but since I already found out that she doesn't really play by the rules I thought she would come back soon with some excuse. Maybe a bit selfish to think she would do that, but as I said, it was just me who was hoping. The hope that someone might like me, the feeling of being loved, or just being liked was something I couldn't imagine and yet y/n already made me feel that she could somehow. 

Who am I convincing? 

That's obviously a lie, no one can like me, let alone love.

By being too deep in my thoughts I didn't hear the knocking on my door, only after 3 times it brought me back to reality. "Come in, " praying it wasn't Thor, luckily for me it was not. It was the lady that confused me, Y/n. 

"Hiiiiiiii, I know I wasn't allowed to bother you buuuuut since it's already lunchtime and Thor is gone helping the others, I was thinking we could eat together. Okaaaay?" 

An excuse, I'm impressed she didn't use the classic can I borrow some sugar.

"Hm, no. We don't have to interact anymore since I've told you everything I could. Bye." I said pointing at the door.

She just looked into my eyes, clearly pissed off:" You seriously think that's the only reason why I wanted to talk to you?!" 

"Well yes, you have Thor now, I'm sure he's much more amusing-" before I could finish my hard words, she had come to me, took my hand and said: " Loki, I know you think really low of yourself, Thor told me, but you don't have to feel that way, not all the people here hate you, you know? I don't, I like you, I bet you wanna know why?"