Can We Be One? ( LokixReader )

10. I Don't Mind Cold.

NO ONE'S POV

As soon as they heard of the special bond they would have, it became quiet between the two of them. It was incredibly awkward to meet your lover this way, they both thought. The fact that this was always planned is just weird, and certainly not normal. But secretly they were also very happy with it because however they denied it, feelings were already there. 

For now, Loki has brought them the big golden palace, Thor now rules over Asgard, but since he is not present they have it for them alone. Once they arrived at the gate, words were finally spoken again.

"I'll take you to your room," Loki said as the gatekeepers let them in. Y/n was amazed at how big the palace was. She followed Loki through the maze of a building until he stopped in front of a door. "Here it is, if you need me, I'll sit in the room next door." 

Y/n was tired of the silence: "Loki wait, can't we talk for a while?" he nodded and they went into her room. It was simple and impersonal, but that didn't matter since they didn't stay here for long anyway. Y/n sat down on the soft bed against the wall, Loki was feeling uncomfortable. "Please come and sit down." Y/n said as she pointed to the other side of the bed. Loki hesitated for a moment and sat down, their faces to each other in tailor's seat. "Dove, I'm sorry to disappoint you that I'm supposed to be your lover. I can't even believe I have a soul mate, let alone someone like you." He looked down at the mattress. Y/n was shocked that he thought these things, she cared very much about him and would do anything to make him happy again, instead of this state.

For this reason, she moved closer to him and put her hands around his neck, because of this he looked up and they met each other's eyes. The sparkles Agne was talking about and who had seen y/n with him before had clearly reappeared, she really loved his eyes. The green forests that matched brown earth, it was beautiful and she would get lost in them. 

"You're the best thing that's ever happened to me, you realize that? You are Loki, my prince." He came closer with his head almost to hers. "Y/n, you can't love something as cold as me." He spoke.

"What do you mean by cold all the time?" Their noses touched with the tip, Loki sighed deeply and dug his head into her neck and put his arms around her waist. Y/n melted in the touch and they were currently sitting, hugging.

"I'm-" he sighed again deep, y/n could feel his breath in her neck and she tightened her grip so he'd feel safe. "I'm a frost giant-"

Y/n knew what they were, her father had told her about them once. He told how they were monsters, cold blue creatures that kill. With those crimson red eyes they could see they would scare other people, she never really thought much of it. 

"Y/n?" Loki had been waiting for an answer but nothing came, she was too deep in her own thoughts. He looked at her again and this brought her back to reality:" Oh, sorry. I know what they are. You don't look like them, and I'm sure you're not bad, not even because of that." 

"How can you know? I'm a monster y/n. I'm that monster, that parents tell their children to scare them, as a punishment. I'm pathetic, I always used to manipulate people, I lied to them, I controlled them, I made them do things that cause them traumas now, I AM A MONSTER." he screamed, cried, everything. All the emotions came above and it was a mess, y/n didn't know what to do, he had told her everything he was scared of, and it showed that he wasn't ready just yet, but it was too late. 

"The whole controlling part wasn't even your fault, everyone has told me so, and they told me you've changed. I believe them! But mostly I believe in you, I believe you are good in your heart, -" she was trying to hold him close as he was shaking badly, he was about to collapse it seemed, but somehow he managed to speak words.