Survive with me

Chapter 5

" Well i feel scared , deserted and helpless . I feel like tomorrow's only gonna be worse . " He said as tears started forming in his eyes .

" I think tomorrow's gonna be worse but were gonna make it better when were together , then the world still has a chance , we still have a chance . " I said

" We have a chance . " He said while he kissed the top of my head .

Me and Will weren't together but it felt like we should be , it felt like i should be held in his arms for hours daily , inhaling the smell of his cologne , axe my favourite . Will was perfect , from hair , to his eyes , to his cologne . Every little thing was added to the perfection .Every little thing was perfection . The little freckles that fall just near the corners of his noise. The dark brown of his hair , his smile , his white teeth , and just him in general . We stayed hugging each other for hours , until we got hungry .

" I'm hungry . " I said

" Same . " He said

" Here . You like peaches ? " I asked as i stood up and went to where my bags were tied and grabbed 2 cans of peaches and 2 forks .

" Yah . " He said

" Here . " I said as i handed it to him . i sat right in front of him . He grabbed his knife that was hooked to his jeans and cut mine and his can open and we dove in .

" How was your life before this shit ? " I asked him

" Good , real good . " He replied

" Tell me about it . " I said

" Well life was awesome i was always going somewhere , but i always came back to Atlanta its home , its been that way for 15 years , when i was little i thought Atlanta was the world everyone lived here because this was the only place , i played hockey , lacrosse , soccer , i was even on the track team , and rugby team , I was always somewhere , i always had to be . I couldn't just sit around . My brothers could they were all planning suicide anyway , so why try to fix life when you had the perfect suicide plan . But other than them life was good . " He said

" You had brothers ? And they killed them selfs ? " I asked

Wills POV ;

" You had brothers ? And they killed them selfs ? " she asked

" Yah i had brothers , i had 3 , and they all killed them selfs . " He said

" Why ? " I whispered .

" They were apparently bullied . And they hated us , when we gave them everything . They were like best friends to me most of the time , and then the rest of the time they hated everyone and everything , And the last 3 days that they were alive they acted perfect , and then they killed themselves Christmas day . I remember waking up and screaming Christmas , I was 11 and i loved Christmas , i was always the first one up , So i ran to my brothers room and tried to wake them up , but they just weren't waking up , so i pulled the blankets off of them and there they lay cut absolutely everywhere pills scattered , and bullet holes in the head , and the blood stained sheets . I knew what had happened i wasn't clueless but christmas of all days . I screamed and started to ball my eyes out , my parents came running down and they saw what i saw , and they started to ball . My mom took me in her arms and i hid my face in her neck . And my dad stood there shocked . My mom kicked me out of the room so they could deal with it , i went to my room still crying . But after and hour or two i was called back down i ran to there room an they were gone , and the sheets too . My mom took me to the christmas tree and i opened everything taking my brothers presents too . I opened everything and made Toms favourite Pancakes , i remember her handing them to me and saying " her sweetheart your favourite pancakes . " And all i said was those aren't my favourite and that day i didn't eat . " I said

" I'm sorry . " She whispered

" It wasn't your fault . " I whispered back .

" But i feel like it is." She said

" Don't . " I said

" How was your life before this ? " I asked her