Empty Hearts?

Chapter 6~ Troyes pov

What drugs can instantly kill you? Cause I could really use some of those. I know this is depressing, but it's my life. I can't just change it.

I look over to my phone, giving up on the idea of death, for now. It will come back, it always does. It occasionally lights up with a notification, but I ignore it. Why did I laugh last night? Was I actually happy? I have never been happy when talking to anyone in person or online really. Maybe it was just because a semi-hot guy talked to me- wait. What? No I, Troye Sivan Mellet, am not someone that likes people. I don't like them they don't like me. Especially not in the context I put that in. Hot? No. Maybe. No. Just no.

Moving on.

Even with my record time for falling asleep (1:00am-ish) I feel like a car ran me over and over and over and I can't move out of bed. It's not that I hurt, but the fact that I'm too lazy and the fact that I'm still feel so tired. Usually I get really tired after I cut or something, but this is way worse! I also had the weirdest dream.

"Troye, you are being sent down to earth. Your time on earth is not fulfilled yet. The morning of the day you got in the car accident. Is this all right?"

I nod in agreement, not knowing what else to do. Where am I? Why am I here? He's also a really big person with big muscles and it's kind of intimidating.

"Now, I want you to take my hands and think of everything you saw before you came here-"

"Wait! Who are you? Why am I here? Where is here?"

"Shh, there's only a little time to answer your questions before the guards get suspicious." I look at him as if he just told me he killed a man.

"No, no it's nothing bad. I'm Frentus's, the god of hatred and all around bad things, good son. He hates me for being good so he keeps me locked away." Relief washes over me instantly. Ok so he's not a killer. Good.

"Ok, I am Ronnoc. You are here because you died in a car accident. Here is the kingdom of where all hatred and bad memories, dreams, and actions end up and sometimes even people." He says as if those words burned him. I bet they would. Living in a place like this. Everything, looks dead. Flames burning trees. But it does look very boring and very plain. He must have seen my curiosity spread across my face because seconds later he was answering my question. I don't have a clue as to how he did, but this is a dream so I guess anything can happen.

"Each tree resembles a person. All of the people on Earth are counted for. Each starts out as a seed, but as the person grows and faces more stress, pain, heartbreak, loss, or anything of that nature the tree grows and grows. Most trees are very small, but everyone has one. Every person that dies their tree goes up in flames. Almost like a 'self destruct'. When that person dies the king, my 'dad' decides where that person goes by the amount of branches and how big the fire is when it 'self destructs'."

"This is a dream right?" I just need to make sure I'm not going crazy. Some times I can realize that I'm dreaming and I can do whatever I want, or I can just wake myself up. Maybe I can just do that because this dream seems bat shit crazy.

"You'll figure that out for yourself." What's that supposed to mean?! Whatever this is just a dream.

"Ok, Ronnoc? What are we-"

"There he is!" Footsteps following the loud yell. It sounds pretty distant, but quickly advancing.

" Quick Troye! Take my hands and think about how you died exactly how it happened." How would I know what the car accident was like? I wasn't there. This is just a dream! Why is it so real like though?

"But I don't remember!"

"Hurry, don't let him get away!" A deep voice sounded like it came from everywhere. Ronnoc grabbed my hands pulling my attention back to him.

"Just try. Close your eyes and try." He said totally calm, probably for my sake.

"Will I see you again?" I ask quickly. It's stupid, but you never know. Hell, I give people bad memories and shit.

He looked back to the running people quickly then to me. "Maybe. Just try doing what I told you."

I grab his hands tighter and think about a car crash. Almost instantly I am teleported? Ok yeah. Teleported. I'm in a car. My car. I'm driving. I stop at a stop light and turn the radio up. I look around to see nothing particularly bad. The light turns green and I, well dream flashback Troye, starts going. I turn my head to see an oncoming van. I scream as does flashback dream Troye. I see a bright light.

And I wake up.

Kind of fucked up, right?

A/N~ Sorry, it's kind of short, but I... I... Umm... Have no excuse... I also have no excuse for not updating for a while... Oh well it's my fanfic. I love you guys! I hope you enjoyed! Do you think Troyes a freak? Oh! Speaking of Freak! Ugh I'm soo sad it's over, but it ended so good, and Wattys! She's such an amazing writer! I'm going to miss that notification.

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Also I'm recommending bringcolourtomyskies troyler fanfic "It Was an Accident." Why? Because it's flipping amazing. *Connor starring at you after rolling head around sassily* But seriously. You. Need. To. Read. It. Go. 😃

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