Murderer {Cake Hoodings}

Chapter 11:

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Song Of The Day: This Is Gospel By: Panic! At The Disco

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L u k e

Theres always that one point in life when your just done with everything. I think i just reached that point.

Im tired of Calum and his stupid mood swings. Im tired of this bullshit he keeps trying to get past me. Im tired of him being so perfect.

And im even more mad that hes making me fall in love with him.

I told myself it would be okay.

This is not what i planned. He is just making this so difficult for me. Im almost to the point where im just done.

Half of me wants to give him time but the other half of me is telling me to move on because hes just playing with my emotions.

I sit on my bed and scream into my pillows.

I didnt go out of my room for the rest of the day. I didnt want to do anything. I was hungry but i didnt move. I was tired but i never went to sleep.

The things this boy does to me is just too much.

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"Pssttt Luke" I heard a voice call out waking me up from my slumber.

I groan and open my eyes only to see Calum hovering over me.

"Get out." I say turning away so i dont have to see his face.

"Luke come onn i couldnt sleep." Calum whines.

"I dont care go away."

"Why are you being like this?" Calum says hurt clear in his voice.

Thats when i really flipped.

I sat up and standed in front of Calum.

"Are you fucking serious right now Calum?! Im just so done with you! One moment you wanna be lovey dovey with me and then the next you say you need time and we cant date or your yelling at me! Do you ever think about how i feel in this position! Im just done! Im done with your mood swings. And most importantly im done with you." I say getting up from my bed and grabbing my guitar and sitting on the bed.

"W-what?" Calum says staring down at me with tear filled eyes.

"Ohh no sit Calum i have a song to play for you." I say sarcastically.

He sits down anyway and looks at me then the guitar.

(I was debating if i should use You Suck but i decided against it because shes not worthy of my shout out)

 "No apologies, he'll never see you cry

Pretends he doesn't know that he's the reason why

You're drowning, you're drowning

You're drowning-ing-ing-ing-ing

And I heard you moved on from whispers on the street

A new notch in your belt is all I'll ever be

And now I see, I now I see

I now I see-e-e-e-e

 He was long gone

When he met me

And I realize the joke is on me

Hey

 I knew you were trouble when you walked in

So shame on me now, flew me to places I'd never been

Till you put me down

Oh I knew you were trouble when you walked in

So shame on me now, flew me to places I'd never been

Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground

Oh, Oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

Oh, Oh, trouble, trouble, trouble"

( I feel this was the perfect song in this moment XD)

I finish off the song and Calum is looking at me in a hurt way and an angered way but i shrug it off not wanting to deal with his bullshit anymore.

I get up and put my guitar back on the stand before sitting back down on my bed and looking at him in a way as to say why are you still here ? But he just looks at me before he finally speaks.

"You know what? Fine you can be done with me i dont care anymore. All i wanted to do was to keep you safe! Your not even allowed around me Luke! I was trying to not like you. I was trying so hard not to fall in love with you but you made it hard! Im not dating you because if i do i would hurt you and i wouldnt be able to live with myself Luke!" Calum says finally letting the tears fall.

"Well now you dont even have to worry about hurting me." I say sighing.

"L-luke. You s-seriously m-mean i-t?"

"Yes now please leave im done with you."

Calum makes a sad noise but then tiptoes out of my house unnoticed.

"What did i just do?" i whisper to myself

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Im v v emotional right now