HELP - Colby Brock story

Razor

Colbys POV 

All i want to do is cut 

just do it already you know sam will never love you, your so worthless, it will only hurt you but you like the feeling don't you?

My hands itched for my blade that Elton took from me, as i lifted up the sleeves of my hoodie that sam gave me i see the scars from my last attempt, but of course it went wrong and i ended up in the hospital because i lost so much blood, i was weak or should i say weaker 

   (flashback to the last attempt )

No one cares about you just do it already 

yes they do Sam does, Elton does and so does everybody else, just you don't NOW LEAVE ME ALONE! 

Can't you see i am not going to leave unless you want me too and it seems like you don't 

please i'm begging you to just get out!

i'll leave for awhile if you cut, now go get your blade back they had no right to steal your property 

ok can you just be quiet or they might hear us

Colby only you can hear me 

Yeah i know but i respond remember?!

Cool see you later i guess 

fine now go 

i go into the garage and grab the lid of the box and grab the blade from the hidden part on the side i carefully put it back in its perfect spot so Elton won't notice, i run back up the stairs grabbing clothes and a towel on the way to start the shower, once the water is the right temperature i make sure to close and lock the door properly this time so i won't be interupted, then bombarded with questions later on then they start watching me like a hawk ready to jump  at its prey or something. the shower water felt nice on my rough skin it felt like a sunny rain or a light rain fall then it ruined the moment on me 

you promised me you would do it now do it before i make you 

ok ok i will can you just chill out i'm getting there and boi do you know how to ruin a moment...

yeah thats what i'm here for to ruin a moment , a second or even your life now chop chop the times going down 

i carefully took the razor blade from my sweater pocket and started with 

1 for being a selfish idiot 

2 more for being colby fricken brock 

3 more because i was gay for sam but never wants to admit it 

then i lay down on the shower floor letting all the blood drain from my body knowing then i can be peaceful...

next chapter coming out tomorrow or Wednesday hope you liked it :D