HELP - Colby Brock story

Stupid Voices

Colby POV 

I see Kat coming back into my room and she pulls me by the arm into Sam's room, puts me in front of Sam "Sam this is Colby, Colby this is Sam I now pronounce you boyfriend and boyfriend" Why is it that i can get everything i wanted but still never be happy? is there something wrong with me that i can never change and hurt Sam more than i want to "Wait what katrina i thought you were kidding?!" 

see he still doesn't love you, and he never will

Just be quiet i'm going to ignore you this is the moment that i was waiting for please i will do what you want later but let me remember this

"you wanna actually be together?" Sam's voice is probably the only voice that can bring me back from my messed up mind "Sure if you want to i mean?" 

Hah can't believe you still lie to yourself Colby 

i said be quiet, we made a deal!

remember the deal then for later

"Alright kiss already jeeze" I want to but i know sam won't want to but he starts heading over, this is the first kiss i have ever had and his lips are soft--- my thoughts get broken when i hear all of the roommates come out and that is when we came an official couple.

2 weeks later 

Colby POV 

NO! i don't want to hurt myself this time

yes but you made a deal with me now go! or i make things so much worse than things are now

I don't care how much worse it gets just leave right now 

Sam POV 

As me and colby are watching Some t.v. i look over to colby deep in thought, i pause the movie go over to him and tell him how much he means to me hopefully helping him fight the voices that come on and off.

3 Days after 

Colbys POV 

i knew he said it would be so much worse, but i didn't think it was that bad until sam left to the store and i stayed home watching youtube. I was fine at first then he came back and sam wasn't there to help me fight him.

Hey Colby, Sam ain't here, now go to the bathroom you know where you put all of your stuff 

i know, but i don't want too...

You say that all the time but you still do 

ok then be quiet 

Shutting

i walk into the bathroom forced by my voices, sit on the floor keeping the door open so sam can find me but this time i do 

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on both of my wrists and sit there waiting for sam to help me, but he never shows before i fall asleep...

Sam POV 

i know i shouldn't have left colby all alone, if the voice comes back i won't be there to help him fight through it. I start shopping more quickly, hoping he did nothing yet. while i'm going through the check out i hear something but find nothing there when i look. So i just shake it off and go through the check out. when i arrive home i put the groceries away and head up the stairs to colbys and my shared rooms, to see him on the bathroom floor with some tiny scissors in his hand asleep. my senses kick in as i yell for Elton "ELTON GET UP HERE KNOW!" hopefully he heard me, i run over to him and hear elton running up the stairs into our shared bathroom asking what happened "what the hell i checked him not even 20 minutes ago i check up every 30 minutes" Colby i wish i can help you but i can't. Maybe after all were both not mentally stable... maybe were both crazy... i push those thoughts away get to helping colby with his cuts on both arms... and wish it were me in colbys position.