i kiss the scars on her skin(completed)

Chapter 38

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ONWARD!!!!!!!!!!!

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Hearts POV:

"guys, she's waking up" i heard vic and jaimes voice, i grunted trying to open my mouth to say two simple word that i would think i would care to say.

"w-were's a-alan?" they all seemed surprised that i asked for him, they just looked at me with there big eyes, god i feel like shit right now aha something alan would of said...Alan!!! wait did all of that happen? yes it did i know it did, don't ask how i know just don't.  "uhm baby he's uhm still out" what? but we were supposed to wake up together thats what alan said, we made up, hell we did more than that we killed each other than told each other we love each other i cant lose alan, he has a part of my heart that he kept for years on in, he cant leave now.

"T-take m-me to s-see him, i need to k-know he's o-ok-kay" what the hell why aren't they helping me?

"babe he's uhm....you cant see him till you get of here babe, alan is well he is in worse shape than you were hun...you hit-" seriously vic.

"DON'T!!! just...i know what i did but we made up and we were supposed to wake up together, how come he didn't tell me he was in really bad shape?" they had confusion written all over them.

"its nothing, ill explain later" i wanted to see alan really bad but i couldn't until tomorrow when i get discharged. I used my last day here sleeping ignoring Niya nagging me about missing shows and hurting alan that bad, but i blocked her out keeping my mind on alan, i don't know why but i don't feel right knowing alan isn't stable, i feel like he's my bestfriend even tho he isn't he is just my school bully.....that iv grown to realize i love him , as a friend of course.

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Finally today i was discharged, i felt warm and cozy in actual clothes, i felt like my normal self but missing a piece of my mind because of alan. "uhm babe just drive back to the venue i wanna see alan...alone" he looked alittle sad i didn't wanna spend time with him but he nodded kissing me goodbye. I took a deep breathe and made my way to alans room, i read the sign before entering "recovering room" i felt really bad for doing what i did. I sat in the chair next to a very pale ginger with tubes insanely all over the poor boy. i shakily grabbed his hand with mine "a-alan i know you can here me, i-i...we need you, i need you i know you were there with me in my head when i was in a coma and i know you meant every word as well as i did, Alan...please dont leave." i crawled into the bed next to him and curld into a ball next to him holding his hand, begging and pleading for him to wake up.

I can here everything Heart is saying, i wanna tell her but i cant. I refused to tell her i wouldn't wake with because i knew how she would react, she would force herself to stay but i cant do that to her, iv already done so much to her. I really do love he...as a friend calm you tits mind....i have to wake up, for her.

"babe wake up, you need to get back to the bus and pack" what? pack?

"why?" im not going any were without alan waking up.

"warped tour is over hun were going home to are daughter" as sad as it sound i don't wanna go home yet, not without alan being okay.

"no, im staying here. when he wakes up ill get on a plane and come home" i could tell how annoyed vic was getting with me.

"no, i haven't spent any fucking time with you, you have been all over alan...get over it he is in a coma because you beat the living shit out of him with a FUCKING SKATEBORED, now please come on" i shook my head, no i didn't beat him...did i?

"what exactly happened?" vic sighed and sat in the chair across ed from me.

"when we came outside we saw you hitting alan with the skatebored so many times, you finally stopped and threw it at him then you looked at us and laughed then you passed out hitting your head on the bus then landing top of alan." oh my god, i-i beat alan into a coma....what is wrong with me?

"vic, im not going any were im sorry okay" he shook his head and walked to the door.

"How am i supposed to marry you when your stuck in your past with alan" and with that said vic was gone, i showed no emotion knowing crying wasn't gonna fix anything, was i really in my past? havei really changed?

"yea you have" i looked up and saw Niya with her arms crossed over her chest

"you changed every ones ways about you, everyone saw you and alan fight but were all over it....but you, let it go and move on Heart your tearing everything you have apart by holding on to your past....you have what you have now....hold on to that" she as well left me, it was just me and alan now i grabbed the guitar on the side of his bed that austin had left, I strummed to deathbeds and sang the lyrics.

"s-stil a-ama-z-zing" i snapped up looking at alan, who was smirking. There's the alan i knew, i smiled and hugged him. "i was afraid you wouldn't wake, wait do you remember a bazooka?" just checking if everything i saw when i was out was real.

"yea and a guitar" i laughed, so this is it...me and alan were actually on good terms and now i could finally let go of my past. all these years holding it inside me, it fells good having it gone.

"ashby, i just fucked my life over" he seemed sad when i said it.

"yea because you dumb ass stayed here to make sure i didn't die, now get you ass to the airport and go home to you daughter" i smiled and hugged alan one last time and made my way out the hospital smiling knowing, things are gonna be okay.

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