my ex husband is my neighbor

the move

Me and my son Jacob just moved to Utah in a two-story house it is probably going to be a simple life since me and my husband split up but I just want to things to be a little bit better with me and Jacob. He says that he misses his father and to be honest I do too but his father already moved on with his life and I think I should but I can't with my depression and my drinking. I tried to get rid of it but no matter how I try to I can't because this is the only thing that keeps me happy. I am not a bad person or a bad mother but I just can't control my habits. I really need to seek help but it's usually better for me to not speak to other people or for me to listen or for me to stop but if things don't get better I don't know what happened come in the future. so a few days later there was a moving truck we thought we were getting new neighbors so I went up to say hi and a blonde woman named Clarissa came up to me and" said oh nice to meet you I'm Clarissa and you are? I said I was nervous to say my name so I just calmly said hello I'm chloe and I gave her a handshake.when I told her that me and my son Jacob are excited to meet our new neighbors i said nice ring. she said that oh I  recently got engaged last week. so would you like to meet my husband and I said sure why not. so I came in and she had a lovely home so I came exploring and then I looked at a picture of her and whoop-dee-doo look who is in the picture with her it was my ex-husband. it was a surprise to me of course but when she told me to meet her husband.he was in the kitchen I was stunned. She told her husband to meet us and he was also stunned to when he first saw me he said hi and I said hey and a very Stern and nervous voice. so I said well you have a lovely house and you have a lovely husband I think I should go now and I left the house and that was the most awkward thing I ever saw.I don't know if things are going to be better or worse.