my ex husband is my neighbor

the party

When I saw my ex-husband I just had no words I was surprised that he got married again I thought you moved all across the country never to see me instead he's living next to me. this is going to be so awkward i have to see him everyday and I have to see him at my son School. even though he had a little bit of custody of him I still don't know what to do my son still sees him on the weekends and sometimes he picks up my son from school and sometimes I think he prefers to stay with Dad instead of me. which means I understand if he doesn't want to spend time with me I am clear about that but I think that it's time for me to change or for me to get better. for the next few weeks I tried to get rid of drinking and I try to get rid of my depression but something else happened something completely dramatic happened when my neighbor started to throw a party for the for their welcome so everyone across the block started to show up with Foods, games, children, and drinks of course Jacob wanted to see his father so I had to come along with him and who was a huge party lots of people were talking, chatting, and children were playing in the backyard and of course my husband and his new wife started to see me and walked up to me to say hello and I said hi and I said look at me and Jacob won't will be staying long I'll just head out of your way and and my husband's new wife said why don't you stay I mean your son and me to get along with other children. want to do Tuesday so we can have a chat and reluctantly I agreed so there I was spending time at a party that's my husband was throwing or should I say ex-husband  a few minutes later clarissa started a chat with me saying that you must have had a really hard time and I said maybe and  clarissa said why don't you go with your son and spend time with him. so I said yes the next few hours go by my husband announced that he will have primary custody of my son and I guess dramatically when I told him that I don't want my son to leave he said that well you look like you can't be a good fit for him so I thought he could live with me for a while until you get back on your feet I said I am good I'm trying to stop my habits and he said well looks like you're  not trying hard enough so I got angry and slapped his face with cake and left with my son and I didn't know what to do next I started a scene which I didn't want to in the first place but the damage has been done I don't know what's going to happen to him but I know it's not going to be good so I have to spend a lot more time with him before he spends time with his father I just wish that our marriage will work out but I guess life has another directions I hope this will get them soon that I love my son I care about him I want to spend every time I'm around him I want to see him grow up but apparently he has to live with his father and spend time with him im so shocked.