Having Her

Chapter 25

Winter's POV:

I am all cried out, I have no more tears to cry today. It was supposed to be my big day, my first real kiss with my guys. We had been planning this for some weeks and Luci said when i was in double digits we could kiss and tighten our love bond. I was so happy, now I am just done. The air feels different, I feel different, nothing will ever be the same.

The last time I will ever see my dad will be the day of my 10th birthday, the last time I will see my mom will be the day of my 10th birthday, I will never see my baby brother or sister be born because it's now dead, on the day of my fucking 10th birthday. I remind myself to breathe in and breathe out, don't forget to breathe Winter.

I found her body, neck twisted in an unnatural way, body swinging, lips blue, bulging red eyes, blood tears stained her cheeks, and my mind released a scream before I could truly register what I was witnessing, but my heart felt nothing. I didn't feel sad, I didn't cry, I just screamed out of reflex I think.

By the time everyone reached the room, I'd already stopped screaming and could only stare. maybe something broke in my head, because she was a work of art. I don't know, but it was beautiful to me. I couldn't hear any sound around me, I couldn't see or feel anyone, all I could do was stand there rooted to my spot like an old tree, and stare. A grin spread across my face and my feet moved on their own accord to her direction, like an invisible magnetic pull between me and the dead drew me to her. Before I could reach out and touch her hand, a salty taste touched my lips and I didn't know until now that I was crying again.

Lucian pulled me back and I couldn't read his expression, was I broken? Why was he looking at me like that? my smile faltered and i realized that this wasn't normal, my mom was dead, why was it so beautiful? Maybe I was broken. I couldn't feel anything anymore, okay so I am broken, but my guys can fix it right? Now I am scared, I can't lose my guys too. When they see I am broken, will they leave? I love them, I don't want them to leave.

"Winter? Winter baby, talk to me, let me hear your voice. Please talk to me!" Lucian shouts in my face, but I was in a trance and I couldn't feel anything. My hands reached again past him, and when I came in contact with her cold skin, I knew for sure my brain was broken. she was an absolute fucking masterpiece, hand sculpted fucking masterpiece of sheer fucking destruction, god it was fucking beautiful. In all my 10 years of living, I've never seen her so beautiful, her dead body glowed radiant in my mind.

Once the veil was lifted from over my eyes and my trance was broken, I felt weightless. then it was dark. It wasn't until I woke again that I realized that I had passed out.