Having Her

Chapter 45

Luciano's POV:

Meirda, this snake fucking bastard has lost his mother fucking mind. I could rip his fucking slimy ass head off right now. What the fuck!!! I've never been more mad than I am right now. This greasy son of a fucking bitch. (fuck)

We collectively agreed that we'd never marry, simply because we were both with her. We were basically a married damn couple anyway. I wonder if when he marries her, he'll stop fucking other women. I can't say that aloud though because I don't want Winter hurt.

Winter grabs a hold of me, and I can feel her body tremble as the tears pour down her face. She isn't ready for marriage and a kid. What the fuck is happening?

"Lucian, are you fucking kidding me right now?" I seethe, gritting my teeth. I could blow his fucking head off right now.

He leans back in his seat with this smug fucking look on his face, like he's on cloud fucking nine. I can literally feel my insides boil red hot as I grip tightly onto Winter to avoid killing him right now.

"Luciano, I am very serious. What else would you have me do? Wed another? Have a wife and keep Winter as a mistress? That won't work Luciano and you know it. I have an obligation to this family, to my title. I always planned to have children with her, so what makes now so different?" I have no words for how bad I want to pull the 9MM from it's holster and blow his fucking brains all over this sitting area.

"You can't do this to her Lucian, have you even considered how she would handle this? What if she doesn't want to? What then?" Winter shakes more in my arms, sobbing as I shoot questions left and right.

"As fucking head of this family, I can do what fucking ever I see fit to do, and it would do good for you to fucking remember that. Brother or not, you will mind your fucking tone and remember your fucking place, Was I not the one who has always been there for you and supported you. Was I not the one who allowed you to walk away from your obligations to this family. I could have easily forced you into Ribo's position and said fuck hoow you feel. As for what Winter wants, it does not fucking matter right now. The decision is already made, so she can willing walk down that aisle, or by fucking god of all the heavens I will drag her down kicking and fucking screaming." He shouts, making Winter shrink into me like a helpless child.

Winter finally speaks, and I haven't heard her sound so broken and defeated since she was 10 years old.

"Papa, Mama... Why? I love Lucian but I am only 17. I don't want to be married and have children. I haven't even finished high school. And what about my degree? You said I could finish college. Then what about Luciano, what will happen with us?" She asks in a whisper, almost too quiet to hear. Her voice is hoarse from crying and she's barely stopped shaking.

"Darling, I have no fucking clue why. I am just as much against this as you and Luciano. But we are women, and in this lifestyle we are left without choice. Come and have a cup of tea with me, Leave the men to talk." Kathy says. She wasn't much of a mother to us growing up, but we have learned to tolerate her as time passed, and she has become a mother figure to Winter where she no longer had one.

As they leave the room, Carmelo turns his attention to me.

"Son, I know this is hard to accept but it is done. Your relationship with her will not change if you don't allow it. She will bare an heir for Lucian, and then you are free to take her however you want and fill her with your children as you please. Winter is my daughter whether blood ties us together or not, I just want what's best to keep our family strong and prosperous. A marriage certificate cannot be the thing that tears you and your brother apart. Would he intentionally hurt you? No, because he has cared for you since you were just a boy. You guys maintained a healthy relationship up to this point, don't throw that away for a piece of paper." How is he so calm about this?

I can't even look at him right now, this is fucking disgusting. All the while, Lucian sits there with this look of triumph on his face like Winter is some fucking prized pony and not the fucking love of our lives.

"Stop fucking talking about her like she's some kind of fucking piece of furniture. If you really considered her your daughter, you wouldn't force this on her. She's still a kid, she's still learning herself and becoming her own person. Not to mention how fucking brutal Lucian has become with her. Are we going to ignore the bruises on her, or how she is always uneasy under his fucking gaze. This is the same girl you took custody of who had a foul mouth and a fiery attitude, now she barely steps a foot out of line around him. She's not like this because she respects his position as boss or her lover, she is like this because she's fucking afraid of him." I needed to take a fucking walk, I was too close to the edge and I felt like I was slipping.

"Little brother, you know what, you're right. She is afraid of me, and that's fine because she fucking needs to be. She will be my wife, and I won't be a fucking pussy like you and let her do whatever she fucking wants to. I am not taking anything from her, she will still be able to do her job as an extractor until I swell her belly with my child. This family is bigger than our relationship and you know it. What did you think? That you would marry her? You have no fucking rank, you're a killer and that's all. You work for me, and if you don't want to get sent on a year long fucking assignment in fucking Africa or some shit, you better shut the fuck up and fall the fuck in line with the rest of us."

I don't say another word. I stand from my seat and storm from the fucking house like my ass is on fire. I need to kill someone, and I need to kill someone now. Why do I feel like I am losing her because of her. Why can't he just marry one of his whores? He doesn't mind fucking cheating, but he minds taking someone else as his wife.