Disclaimer:
This is a work of fiction.
Bussinesses,Characters,Events, Names, Places, Incidents are base on my imagination.
Any resemblance to actual person, living or dead, actual events are purely coincidental.
This story contains mature scenes and foul words.
The most wonderful feeling a person could ever felt is love. Everyone wants to feel that feeling of being in-love . Love could be painful but it will teach us many lesson. You couldn't chase love because it will come in the most unexpected ways. Love to live.
To love and to be loved. Lucky are those who experienced that, because in my case I just love.
Under the lights of a thousand stars and the breathe-taking moon, here I am looking in the eyes of my man who shatter my heart in pieces and until now I still don't know how to fix it.
"Eury " my heart aches when he call my name.
He's looking at me with pain. I don't know where did it came from but my heart feels like I was stabbed. I don't want to see him hurting, that's what I hate the most. Seeing someone's eyes with pain, but he's not just someone, He is the love of my life, but he didn't love me. I already accept it but my heart won't stop loving him.
"Jace".
umawang ang kanyang labi nung sabihin ko ang pangalan niya.
" How are you Eury?", tanong niya sa akin. He's serious while asking it.
still hurting, but you cant do anything to remove the pain that I'm feeling.
"I'm doing well, Jace." don't worry I'm good at faking smiles.
he smiled after hearing those words.
"I'm glad to hear that!" he said, hindi ito ang Jace na nakasanayan ko.
why all of a sudden nagiging mabait siya sa akin, hindi niya ako pinag-tabuyan. He doesn't feel irritated.
"Did it make you happy?" may nagbabadyang luha sa kaniyang mata. Am I seeing this for real?
naguluhan ako sa sinabi niya, what makes me happy? the what? arghh I don't know what he's saying.
"the what?" naguguluhan kong tanong sa kaniya.
tumalikod siya sa akin, I don't know why.
na shock ako sa sinabi niya.
"Did it make you happy leaving me?" what? sinabi niya iyon nang nakatalikod sa akin.
Did I leave him?
ako ay naka-upo sa buhangin at siya nakatayo at nakatalikod sa akin.
"HUH? what are you saying Jace?" taka ko siyang tinignan ngunit likod niya lang ang nakikita ko ni minsan hindi ko nagawang hawakan.
"You're so slow , Did it make you happy leaving me? Do you really hate me that much that's why you cancelled the engagement? Do I cause you so much pain? You didn't even tell me." humarap na siya sa akin, I saw his bloodshot eyes looking at me.
why he is saying this? I'm confused.
"Anong sinasabi mo Jace?" tinagalog ko lang ang tanong ko. "I guess, you're happy that I did it." nakita kong umawang ang kaniyang labi at kumuyom ang kaniyang palad sa sinabi ko. All of that for what?
"That's what you think?" he is smiling, but I still see pain his eyes.
nag-labanan kami ng tingin.
"Eury, damn! Mahal na kita eh, Bakit bigla ka na lang nang-iwan?" gigil niyang binitawan ang mga salitang iyon.
I was shock. Mahal niya daw ako? ano yun? joke time? I smiled bitterly, hindi dahil sa bitter ako ha? dahil ang hirap paniwalaan ng mga sinabi niya.
"Hindi ko alam ang mga sinasabi mo Jace!" umiwas ako sa nakakatunaw niyang tingin.
it's to good to be true.
Lumaylay ang kanyang balikat sa sinabi ko.
"You don't know? or you couldn't accept it?", seryoso niyang tugon.
I Smiled at him at nilaban ko din ang tingin niya.
"Both , because it's to good to be true." sagot ko sa tanong niya.
umawang ang kaniyang labi, he nodded.
"Eury, I just want to know why did it end up like that? cancelling it without my permission?umalis ng di nag-paalam?"he smiled so weakly. "Congrats Eury, you did a great job of breaking me." ha? break him? did I? What did I do? I did what's the best for him.
ginawa ko yun dahil iyon ang alam kung tama. I did it for him. I sacrificed my dreams for him. Gusto ko sumaya siya, I don't want to see people miserable because of me. Why would I marry him if he is not happy with me? I am not selfish, all I wanted for him is to be happy even it will cause me pain. I let him go because that is the right thing to do.
Tumayo ako at hinarap siya dahil naguguluhan na talaga ako. stress na ako ha!
"Breaking you? Did I? Anong ginawa ko Jace para sabihin mong winasak kita?" tanong ko sa kaniya.
He looked at me so weak. I don't want to see this but hindi ako titibag. You got yourself Eury. It took you so many years to love yourslef. Huwag kang papaloko sa mga kasinungalingang salita.
" I didn't do anything to hurt you. I only love you, but all I've got from you is pain, so much pain pero hindi ko kayang saktan ka Jace because I love you that much." my eyes dont know how to lie. pumatak ang luha ko.
he look worried when he see me crying, lalapit sana siya sa akin nang lumayo ako. umawang ang kanyang labi sa kilos ko.
you don't want me near you, ako na ang mag-aadjust para sayo Jace.
"You should be happy because I cancelled it. You should be happy because you can love who you want. Don't worry, tanggap ko na Jace, tanggap ko na, no matter what happens, you won"t love." Walang preno kung binitawan ang mga salitang iyon.
he uttered a words. "Didn't hear what I said? mahal kita Eury, mahal na mah-!"
"You never love me, you never did." pigil ko sa sinabi niya.
Hindi ko na siya hinayaang mag-salita dahil tinalikuran ko na siya at tumakbo as fast as I could. Narinig ko ang tawag niya pero hindi ko na siya nilingon pa, baka maging marupok ulit ako. sobra akong nasaktan nang dahil sa kanya pero ininda ko yon kasi mahal ko. I still love him but I dont have a choice. ang gulo arghhhhhhh!!!!!
"Jace never love me, he never did."
xxxassstrophile...
