➪ 𝐶𝐴𝑁𝐷𝑌 - 𝑡𝑖𝑘𝑡𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑟𝑠

josh richards - dm's

thanks for all the reads josh was requested by ilybrycehall  so here ya go ly all and sorry if there are any typos i'm writing this at 3 am so yh btw i've started saying 'I' instead of 'you' cuz it's easier to write like that 💖

⚠️ self harm⚠️
Y/N POV

you are 16 years old and go to a high school in la your not really popular but you do have friends. you used to be friends with charli demilio (don't come at me if u spelt it wrong) but she kept putting me down and was really rude so she became popular and i didn't ( btw no hate)

lately i've been really depressed. kids at school always making fun of me. i got very insecure and anxious and it made me feel terrible. then i started cutting and starving myself and i would cry myself to sleep. i always acted happy around my friends because they were always happy

no one in my friend group never gets upset or upset infront of us and i really don't want to feel weak by doing so. if i talked to anyone else they would just think i'm a total freak and a weirdo so i just kept it to myself. i really needed to tell someone though.

i had the great idea to tell someone who definitely wouldn't respond. who better else than the famous josh richards himself, (btw he is not with messaging in this story) it's not like he was ever going to see it or respond. he probably has so many dm's from so many people and it's very very rare if he saw 1 dm

it was 3 am and i just couldn't get to sleep. i decided now or never so now it is. i went on his profile and started to type this massive paragraph about how i feel and my self harm but who cares he won't see it

i finished the para and was about to click send. but so many thoughts went through my mind like:
if you send it your so weak
you will seem like a crazy fan
he's probably trying to sleep at 3 am stupid

i just ignored them and sent it. i put my phone down and tried t get to sleep. surprisingly i did not long after. it felt good to tell someone what was going on even if they weren't gonna respond because i didn't need a response.

Josh's POV
i was laying in bed scrolling through insta when i got a dm from i girl. i only saw half of the notification when my phone died 🤦‍♀️. i put it on charge and went to sleep.

i got up the next day totally forgetting about the message. i decided that today i was gonna do a youtube video that's not teatok. i got my camera and i got bryce. we sat down and decided we were gonna be reading our strange dm's

we were a few dm's in when it was the girls dm. i was reading through it and it was so upsetting. i let a tear fall from my face. i had the worst memories with cutting and abuse. bryce saw i was crying and he grabbed my phone. as he read the message you could see it upset him as well. he turned the camera off and told me i should dm her back

the reason why it is so upsetting is because the same thing had happened to my old best friend. he father and mother abused her and she was bullied all the time. when i would ask if she was okay she would just say 'i'm fine'

the bullies got to her and she started cutting. her parents made it worse and she just couldn't put up with it. one night she went to a tall building and jumped off. her parents put all the blame on me for not being there so i went to la to clear my hard and that's when i met the boys