Shitpost

so you don't care

Literally today was
Horrible.
I have some anger issues.
I was always told that I should fix them
and it's not their fault.
That they can't help me in any way.
I always showed it, I can't help it
I want to stop but I cant
It's..
Addicting..?
No..
It's a force of habit.
But today..
Today when I showed it..
It was different...
I was able to control it.
I was able too..
Not be destructive..
In words wise..
But..
The price I had to pay for it..
I guess..
To get blamed easily..
"You're easy to blame"
Ha...
Yay...
I get blamed on more..
My father...
He is a kind man..
Willing to risk his life for others
But..
Will he do the same for me..?
Getting yelled at him the most..
Scares me..
I always flinch.
Ehehe..
Not like he hurt me physically
He couldn't..
But emotionally is something he can do..
It's accidental but It still hurts..
I've been thinking to tell my parents how I feel.
I..
I did it..

But..
Looks like they don't care..
"So you noticed..?"
"..."
"....."
"What if it killss you?"
"I won't care.."
"So you don't care about us?!"
"Haha.. more like the other way around.."
"Wow so we don't care about you now?"
"Emotionally yeah.."

I mumbled the last part.
They wouldn't care anyways..

"Why me?"
"Why.. why is it always me.."

G u i l t
S a d n e s s
A n g e r
C o n f u s i o n

"I-i.."
"I just don't know anymore..!"