Burning In The Rain

BITR-105

[Valla's Point of View]

I smiled at myself. I'm on my way to Singapore, I smiled bitterly again. I'm going to somewhere I want but I just broke my heart.

Gusto ko na si Rogue.

Gusto ko na s'ya but what he did to my cousin is bad, ayokong saktan si Lally dahil lang sa gusto ko na si Rouge. Ramdam ko kasi na gusto n'ya pa si Rogue at sobrang affected n'ya pa.

After what I chatted him, hindi na ulit s'ya nag message sa akin. I also deactivated my account.

Three days ko rito at napuntahan ko na ang mga sikat na tourist spots dito sa Singapore alone like marine bay sands, gardens by the bay, botanic gardens, clarke quay, universal studio at pulau ubin. At ngayon naman, last day ko na, flight ko na mamayang 12 am, at may time pa ako para magpunta sa merlion park. Laki ng gastos ko, ay este laki ng gastos ni Lally para lang masaktan ko si Rogue.

Nasaktan ko nga, nasaktan ko naman ang sarili ko.

Sa telegram ay kachat ko si Kyle palagi. Sa kan'ya ko sinisend ang mga picture ko.

In this alone trip, I realized that self love should be top of everything next to God. Before you love someone, you need to love yourself first.

Ang dami mong mari-realize kapag minahal mo muna ang sarili mo, that you actually don't have to rely into someone just to love you, things should be sort according to what is really should be prioritize. Studies, family, friends and yourself.

Self love, is what you actually need. Stop wanting someone to love you just because you love that person. Loving someone doesn't mean that someone should love you back, acceptance should also be a thing.

Naks, englisher na ako. Haha

Loving yourself will bring the real meaning of happiness to your life, you will feel free, you will feel loved and you can breathe properly without feeling that something's burden.

Love yourself first bago ka mahal ng ibang tao, kasi kapag nagawa mo 'yan, solid ang pagmamahal na maibibigay mo sa taong gusto mo.

Love will come eventually, no need to rush things. If it is meant, it is meant.

From: Kyle Arceo Gago

D'yan ka lang sa Merlion Park.

To: Kyle Arceo Gago

Oo, rito lang ako. Mamaya na ako uuwi para mag impake.

I sent him a lot of pictures, nabili ko na rin ang sapatos n'yang size 11, binigyan ko na rin s'ya ng skin sa ml, tiba tiba sa akin ang gago.

Nag message ulit s'ya sa telegram.

From: Kyle Arceo Gago

Ano nga ang suot mo?

I rolled my eyes, parang tanga talaga ang gagong 'to.

"Hi, can you take me a picture, please?" I asked some local, tumango naman ito at kinuha na ang phone ko.

Nagpose ako sa tabi kung saan kita ang Merlion, I'm wearing a simple black statement oversized shirt at high waisted ripped jeans and a white sneakers, I tied my hair into two braids at nagsuot ng red bandana. Nakatote bag naman ako.