I'm still here - YiZhan

My wish tonight

The night felt it never ended instead it was a beginning of different journey for them

"Xiao Zhan, there's something i wanted to tell you. You know when when we first met at the rapeseed field sometime back..i saw you from afar something tug in my heart about the smile and manner that you had well it was just a strange feeling but I brushed it off, yet your smile and and eyes somehow gets into me, I know you were singing and pretty much into your band then...I sort of follow some of your social media posting....and well then I heard you went to the audition for the untamed...I wanted badly to also be in the casting team. I was up few nights thinking about getting through the audition, it was disappointing when i found out i didn't pass the screening initially but I didn't want to give up, something just drove me to keep knocking on the door from every possible angle, whatever it is I want to be in the cast ...and when i heard that you passed the lead role, I felt i have to in whatever way clinch and win the judges that I am worthy to take up the role to be filming together. I can't explain it to you, the intensity that i felt it was just that and every moment on the production days ...i learn more about how i feel about you. It is the same intensity I feel that i am sure about us, I've tried many ways in fact to move on forget, name it I have but that is also to really understand more, how deep i feel and i want us to walk our path together like what you have always ask of me."

Zhan was listening attentively now ...both facing each other just the stillness surrounding them as Yibo speaks his heart out. "Zhan I cannot promise this path that we are taking will always be a bed of roses because we know it is not nor can I predict every challenges we will surface unscathed, but what i am sure is i will not have anyone hurt you, us and i want to be with you forever."

Zhan tried to speak but Yibo put his hand over Zhan's mouth..."I don't need an answer from you, you can tell me when you are ready, but tonight I want to make sure I make my stand clear to you that you Xiao Zhan is the one i love, yesterday, today and tomorrow and till the end of this time."
Zhan was speechless again, he heard this a few times from Yibo...but the seriousness of Yibo's voice, manner and the way he speaks is just shooting into Zhan's heart making them beat as each words are delivered to him....."Erm, Bodi ...I"
"Open it" He placed the gift box on his hands

Zhan was fidgeting, he was...happy ..really happy, yet he wasn't sure how to respond. "Do i need to open it now?"
So if there were any spectators now, they would have knock Zhan's head he thought. What was he even thinking asking such a question still the mind talking to himself.

Yibo held his hand "stop...just shut the mind for a bit...listen here" He pointed his fingers onto Zhan's heart....Zhan closed his eyes
I love this guy so much....so much. Want to be with him forever...want to be with him...that is what his heart wants deep inside. But what if..'

Zhan stop and at that instance lunge forward to hug Yibo tightly "Don't know what i am doing but this is what my heart feels" He move in to kiss Yibo with all his pent up feelings just telling him in those kisses in his own language Wang Yibo I am so messed up, I miss you, love you, I can't even be my primp and proper self at times because my life had you all these while, you have been here in me, in my head, my heart, in my dreams, living in my diary I'm not sure how I can even get you out any more, this is just crazy but i love you more than you think I do ....no words just letting it go telling Yibo in those kisses on his own story his own predicament that ever since he gave in to him, Yibo had secured his heart despite the confusion and uncertainty that haunt him at times but he had never once left Zhan's heart. Despite the cold treatment he gave Yibo earlier .....Yibo had never, never once left his heart, he would never know how much his heart has been hurt trying to keep his feelings hidden, hurting himself to keep Yibo safe, but every bit is worth it because he love Yibo deeply, too deep that he was so afraid to keep falling deeper at times but Yibo's assurance and commitment keeps him going. They will have to brave it out. As the kisses intensified, Zhan's pent up emotions came with tears unconsciously

"Yibo you know I love you ....a lot"

"I know and i sometimes wonder why are you keeping it from me...the depth of your feelings I only feel it when I feel you, that's when I get to see every emotion of yours clearly....That's when even you can't deny it because you feel the same as I do and if the surrounding circumstances were non existent, we would be planning for the day we take our vows in front of all, and I wang Yibo will be the happiest person, until then I will continue to keep my promise to you Zhan like how we have prayed and wish for, as we write our wish on the lantern that we let go together during our filming back then..i meant what i said.....be with you forever.

And so have Zhan many times in his dreams seen similar images.
"Lan Zhan! Lan Zhan! We can let it go here. Come on quick..."
In his dreams he had seen this many times ...Lan Zhan and him writing their wishes on a lantern it was like the setting back at the untamed but just a different feel...he wasn't really acting but it was them in the same outfit calling each other their stage name. Wei Ying would paint on the lantern
Lan Zhan and Wei Ying - Forever till death to us apart and they would be here the same spot every year letting go the lantern as partners in life signifying their walk together. Lan Zhan as usual would a keep guarded eye over Wei Ying as he skip happily going down the steps down the hill until they reach a little stream where night flowers bloom and Lan Zhan would insist that Wei Ying stay still in his arms the whole night. It was just them no disturbances, just them in their own world and he sees them growing old together.

"Zhan...it's crazy how things are with both of us in the limelight, but remember our little talks when we were filming late into the night....as difficult as it gets, we will pull through. Still holding on to the gift and putting it onto Xiao Zhan's hand.
Xiao Zhan unwrap it...still heart beating as fast as it could get. He stared at it and then back to Yibo.
Yibo took it out and put in onto Zhan's finger "Hmm it fits well ...let it stay there like that" He smiled at Zhan who is still stunned.
"Shhh..don't say anything this look on your face is priceless Zhan Ge, and I love you for it...don't need to say anything, just treat it like another gift from me, when the time comes I want the whole world to know that you are officially off the list of being single and available even if it means announcing it subtly so i can fend off all the competition out there" Yibo teased Zhan back who is now looking handsomely shy and blushing.

They had in the past wore rings and pendants which they bought for each other be it couple rings like how they called it or accessories but tonight Yibo had made himself clear again to Zhan that he may seem cold to others, but around Zhan, Zhan warms him up and Yibo's position on this relationship had never changed, his feelings deeply anchored, rooted and intertwined with Zhan.

"I miss you a lot lately, it's been tiring but seeing you gives me the strength to go on when things get difficult, I love you Zhan always" Yibo cuddle Zhan in as Zhan lean in to his chest seated on the sofa both warmly tugged into each other's embrace just taking a break from the busy schedule and limelight, just being in their space in their own time"