The Cycle Of Pain And Dismay

What do you do when the world around you is shattering.
The place you call home crumbling into nothing.
All hope dissolving into the deafening ring of time passing.
Each second more excruciating than the last.

You wish that time wouldn’t pass.
You wish the pain away for all the tears to dry and show you the way.
At that moment you would wish it  all  away welcoming numbness into your everyday.

Little did you know the terror of the numbness you craved.
The despair it brings to mask the pain.
Oh! How you wish now for the pain.
For all the numbness to go away.
But alas! Now you are stuck in the never ending cycle of pain and dismay.

The cost of pain is too much to bear
but the numbness causes to much despair.
But what else can you do other than while away,
on the cycle of pain and dismay

~thequeendorkⒸ

This is my first poem I have posted and I hope you all like it :)) I appreciate constructive criticism and would love to hear all your thoughts on it.

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