This is just a free write becuase I have no motivation to do anything else but cry. I want to be happy and achieve my goals. Right now, it seems impossible.
Whether I like it or not, I'm going to have to accept thatbi'm not going to be enough to anyone wo helps me. No matter what I do, or how I do it, it's all wrong. Seeing my boyfriend on a Friday night is a problem just as me being an art student is. I'm not ever going to be the perfect child, the perfect daughter, the perfect role model sister. At this point in my life, I could give less fucks if I'm being lady-like about seeing my boyfriend or buying him food.
If I listen to metal, I'm a joke. If my shorts are too short, I'm a whore. Right now, I am at the point where I'll embrace the shit people say about me. Call me whatever you think I am; I guess this is what it means to be a woman. If youre not lady-like they'll tell you. If your legs aren't shaved someone will laugh at you. If your teeth aren't straight, someone will tell you to fix 'em. As an american woman, (and I lowercase 'American' becuase I'm a minority and aparently to some (still) that doesn't qualify me as one). If I want my hair curly, someone will tell me to straighten it. I'm never going to be the perfect 'all American' girl. Never.
In case you couldn't tell though, I am completley okay with that. I'm losing my mind, I'm going nuts and I'm breaking rules of all sorts. I'm breaking traditions many wouldn't dare break in their hispanic parents eyes. I'm going to be the most imperfect daughter and I'll just accept it as it is. I did what I could to make my parents proud and it s never going to be good enough. Whether I gain or lose weight, cut or dye my hair, do or dont wear makeup. These are more important aparently. Fuck it. I'll cover myself in piercings and tattoos and be me unapologetically. The world better be ready for it all.
This, my friends and fellow readers is what it means to be a woman.
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Dark Poems and Inner Thoughts (Vol.2)
PoetryThis is the second collection of my works built off of my negative emotions. They'll be a lot better than the first volume, I hope. This collection includes poetry,as well as miscellaneous writing. Enjoy, or not.
