Insanity

To An Anonymous Human

Hey,
I know it's been awhile
And we hardly talk anymore,
It's closer to we don't talk at all, really...
In complete and total honesty
I miss you,
I miss everything about you,
I see you around and you just look so
Happy, just like you always have
Smiling with all of your friends,
Yet something bothers me inside
I see your words
I see the self-hatred,
Don't worry, I have that too
I see that you're not happy,
I just want you to be okay,
I really do
And I know I've been so distant,
And you probably think I've stopped caring,
And I have.
But not about you
I've been putting up with things too,
Things that I never thought would happen to me,
I've been hurting too,
And pretending that it's fine
But it's not fine for anyone to feel that way
I want more than anything to let you back into my life,
I want more than anything for you to come back,
I want to be there for you,
I want you to have someone that truly understands your pain
I know that you might not want to talk to me,
Or let me back in
And that's okay,
Just know that I still do care
About you,
And I will be here if you need me.