The Boy Who Died

Robinson McCandless.

"Do you know what he did in Falmouth?"

"Dunno, probably make music or draw."

First of all, I felt like Robinson Cruseo and Christopher McCandless in that house.

I was Robinson McCandless.

The first thing I did when I woke up from my nap, was that I put my drawings on the wall in the hallway, so that everyone entering the house immediately knew, that I - the unrecognized genius - now lived here.

Fūck that art school.

That maybe makes me sound like a huge conceited idiot now, but at that time I really did not realize how bad my work was.

I felt ecstatic and I really didn't know what I wanted to do first. Like, I really wanted to explore Falmouth, go out and maybe find a guitar somewhere, but than I looked around and saw a whole bunch of books. So I decided that I would read, at least till the morning hours. Than I wanted to sleep till midday. I never used to be awake much before lunch anyway. Problem was, Wills grandma had a whole bunch of cheesy romances. I did not feel like reading Jane Austen, so I settled for J.D Salinger and Jon Krakauer. That is also how I learned about Christopher McCandless.

Jon Krakauer's book 'Into The Wild' is the tragic story of Christopher McCandless, a young collage graduate who left his family and friends, abandoned most of his material possessions, went to the Alaska wilderness and eventually died a peaceful but tragic death. While reading his story I stumbled across this passage, it's from a letter that McCandless wrote to his friend and it feels really important to me.

"...make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have thought of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt. So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservation... The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure."

The passage changed something inside of me because my life has been filled with stagnation and inactivity as well. I never considered myself unhappy, but I've been always afraid of moving outside of my mothers reach, of expanding further than my own comfortable little shell. I always tried to be at my best behavior, tried to make my mother proud and my teachers like me. I barely did the things that I wanted to do. I always was too busy trying to please my mother.

When I read about McCandless, I noticed that one of his admirable traits is if he wanted something he went out and did it. He was not afraid of challenges, the greater they are the better. McCandless had a plan and he did it, without worrying about it for too long.

And I am glad, that I also decided to make the decision to leave, because I was unhappy and frustrated with my old life. I'll never regret that I did it, I just wished I would've thought about the people I left behind for more than a minute.

McCandless adventure ended with his death, mine as well and by God I hope, that not everybody's adventure ends this way.

I sure did not plan for mine to end this way.

### A/N
Picture at the top is of Christopher McCandless. if you have not read 'into the wild' yet, you definitely should because it is truly inspirational. Some may call Christopher a idiot, but I think he's a role model since he had a dream and actually had the courage to pursue it. It didn't work out that well in the end, but he was happy. (the movie is really not as good as the book, so don't watch it)

also, the day Jack left is the day that he was at the art school. all happened the same day, so just to clear that up. if there are any other Questions, let me know.

Also, 5 votes on last chapter made me really happy so I wrote this last night already ehehe Also, get ready cause I plan to let Charlie appear soon.

#authorsnotelongerthantheactualychapteroops

also #112 in adventure, now thats kinda cool

also, any ideas for the cast? I was thinking Nat Wolff as Will but not sure and I think I'm gonna keep Jack a mystery

I'm really happy with this chapter but at second glance not so much anymore :(

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