i wake up and feel a warm mass underneath me. i slowly open my tired eyes and see Jay staring straight at me with a smile on his face. "morning sleeping beauty," he says. "morning," i manage to croak out. "im not gonna lie that was one of the best nights of my life," Jay says. i smile and stretch. he watches my body and he gulps. "awe Bird. dont get excited again," i say jokingly. he rolls over and kisses me. he pulls away and looks into my eyes. "bird, what are you thinking? and be honest," i whisper. "im thinking how truly beautiful you are, even with your makeup smudged and your hair a mess,” he says with a soft smile. I feel my face drop. “thanks for last night, but I really must go now,” I respond. I jump out of the bed and start gathering my things as fast as I can. “whoa, Trin. Whats wrong?” for some unknown reason I feel a rush of anger. “don’t call me Trin! And quit being so nice! Youre a celebrity and im a piece of shit girl from the wrong side of the tracks. I am not about to let myself fall helplessly for those bright blue eyes or smooth talk! I cant and I wont let myself get hurt again!” I burst out. I feel my fists clench at my side and look into Jay’s eyes. He looks back into mine and i know exactly what hes seeing in them: pain, anger, and depression. "what happened to you to make you so... cold?" Jay asks. i laugh coldly and say "why would you care? Youre a celebrity who only has one night stands, so leave this to be one,” I respond icily. I start to walk out when Jay says "you dont really think youre leaving do you?" "of course i am, theres no reason for me to stay here," i say.
he grabs my arm and i flinch. he lets go of my arm quickly and looks at me in bewilderment. "no," he whispers. "did someone beat you?" he asks in disbelief. "why the fuck are you actually talking to me now? why are you acting like you care hmm? all you wanted was the sex. i gave it to you. now leave me alone!" i yell and attempt to walk out until he grabs my waist. "youre not leaving to go anywhere until youve had a shower, breakfast, and told me everything," Jay says sternly. "you cant just tell me what to do and expect me to do it," i seethe. "shower. now," Jay responds and pushes me towards the bathroom. i stumble and glare at him then stomp into the bathroom. i get into the shower and i automatically break down crying. all i could hear were my cries, so i didnt know Jay was in here until he pulled back the curtain. at that point i didnt really give a fuck so i just kept crying. he wrapped me up in his arms and we sat on the shower floor.
i eventually stop crying and look at Jay. "i think its safe to say i didnt just want you for sex, though you were amazing," he says with a wink and i laugh softly. "theres that beautiful smile!" Jay exclaims. we get out of the shower and get dressed. there was food waiting on the table when i walked out. "food my lady," Jay says. i just shake my head and sit down to eat. after we ate in silence, Jay brings me to the couch. we lay there watching the waves roll to and from the ocean. "tell me everything. i wanna know," Jay says. he lets me keep my back towards him cos he knows if i looked at him i wouldnt be able to talk about it. "when i was a child, my mom left. she took my dads whole soul with her. my dad always drank and he never cared for me. he gave me a card and a bank account. that was all i needed. i think the main reason he neglected me was due to the fact that i look just like my mother, especially her eyes. then my ex came along, he treated me like a queen at first, but then he started getting angry at everything. i stayed thinking i could help him through it, but how wrong i was. he beat me, raped me, and so on. i lost myself in that situation and i felt numb. i promised myself i would never get into another situation like that. so ever since then ive acted happy and ive just been going to parties trying to feel something, to make me know im alive. I also promised myself I would succeed in life and not have a worry in the world. My dad passed away about six months ago so as soon as i was able, i left and got my own place in Orlando, and came here as soon as i could. I believe the reason he died was from heart break and him drowning himself in misery."
Jay sat in silence and i know he's thinking of what to say. finally he says "i may have only just met you yesterday, but i wont be your ex nor your dad. i want to be your friend first and then more. it doesnt matter how broken you are, im going to heal you. what are you plans after Ibiza?" "i have none. i just go where God takes me," i answer. "so you believe in God then?" Jay asks. "i have to believe in something or else ill fall to my death. whats hope if you have no faith?" I say. "true. what do you do in your spare time?" Jay asks. i laugh and say "what is this? twenty questions?" "something of the sorts, so answer me," he says. "well i read, write, draw, paint, dance, sing, photography," i answer. "so youre artisitc? that would work out perfectly," Jay says. i turn to look at Jay and say "what are you up to Mcguiness?" he smiles kisses my cheek and says "youll find out soon. be right back." he gets up and walks out the door, to go see the boys i assume.
i remember Chelle telling me to call her so i go grab my phone and sit on the couch. i dial her number and within one ring, she answers. "spill!" she says. "hello to you too. and oh my gosh! it was fucking amazing!" i say excitedly. she laughs and says "i bet it was. are you still in his room?" "yeah but he just left to go talk to one of the boys," i reply. "yeah he just came and got Max, something about a band meeting," she says. "you dont think me a hoe do you?" i ask. she laughs and says "honey, we were all planning on gettin some while we were here. at the club everyone knew yall were going to get together. there was too much sexual tension there." "shit, it was that noticeable?" i say. "uh yeah, but Max just walked back in and we are going to go get breakfast. see you later!" Chelle says. right then Jay walks back into the room. "so Mcguiness what did you have to go an do?" i ask. "your question will be answered in a couple of minutes. just answer your phone," Jay answers.
right then my phone rang and it was an English number so i answered it. "hello?" i answer. "Trinidy?" i hear a woman ask. "Yes, whos this?" i say. "This is Jayne Collins, The Wanted's manager. i was just calling to ask you what your plans for the future were?" she asks. "uhm i dont really have any at the moment. why?" i say. "well the boys thought it would be a good idea if we hired you to work for us as anything youd want to be. you can help them write, you could help them act civil, you know just about anything. youd get to travel with them to wherever they go," she says. as she says this my jaw drops lower and lower. "would that be okay?" she asks. "uhm erm.. yeah yes! that would be great!" i answer. she laughs and says "good just talk to Jay and he'll give you all the details. i look forward to meeting you Trinidy, and if Jay doesnt treat you right, give me a ring and ill set him straight. have a nice day!" "thanks so much! you too!" i say and hang up the phone. i see Jay looking at me slyly and i launch myself over on top of him.
"i cannot believe you fucking did that! oh my gosh! im gonna work for The Wanted! im gonna fucking tour with The Wanted!" i yell while jumping up and down and throwing my fists in the air. "you wont live to work for us if you dont quit bouncing," Jay growls. thats when i realize im still on top of him and i laugh and look at him. "really, thanks though. youve given me something to be happy about," i say. "your welcome. now wheres my kiss?" Jay asks. i go in to kiss him then i jump off him and run to the bathroom. but before i get there he catches me and lays me down on the bed. "i already told you last night you wouldnt get away from me again," he says in warning then smiles and kisses me. "just so you know, we need to go to the beach so your pale ass can get some sun," i say jokingly. "shut up! quit talking about my pale ass! go to your room and change. meet me back here in ten minutes." so i leave and go to my room. i sit on my bed for a minute and start smiling like an idiot when i realize that life actually might work itself out.
