Nothing But A Tragedy

Ch. 17: The Return

This chapter starts with Niyah's journal entry, and filled with it will be everything that would have happened from January to July. Enjoy 💕

July 1, 2015

️Niyah

Once again, I'm back from the dead. I need to get back into the habit of writing. I used to write down every single feeling, thought, or event going on in my life, but I haven't had motivation lately. Plus so many things have been going on all at once. It's too much to handle, I'd rather sleep it off than write about it.

My babies can come any day now. Yes, I said BABIES. I'm having twins, one boy and one girl. When the doctor told me I really couldn't believe it, I wanted to kill him. I didn't want to believe that I was gonna be 18 with two kids already.

I replay Gia telling me that this is "nothing but a tragedy" over and over again, but I refuse to believe it. This came at the wrong time, and might've changed a lot, but it's not tragic at all... it's a blessing. So many people told me to get an abortion, and I wanted to slap every single one. That list includes my mother and Gia, and I don't talk to either one of them. I literally treat them as strangers when I see them in public, and it feels good. Plus I don't have to see Gia every day since we graduated, so I rarely even think about her... or my mother.

I can't look at that woman in the face, ever. She's said so many f'd up things to me after I got pregnant, you wouldn't think she was my mother:

"I should've aborted you when I could."

"I wish I never had you."

"You're a disgrace to me and my family, I don't want anything to do with you or those fucking kids."

Nice right?

My father broke up with her after that... its weird though because he still lives with them; but, he has been by my side ever since. I can truly say I love my father, even after all the bad things he's done. But that's in the past and he's trying his best to make up for it. Similar to Christian, although he was the worst boyfriend I could ever have he's a good ass friend. So good, that he even squashed his little "beef" with Brandon. They've been going at it since they met, to being... well not friends, but cordial. It makes everything easier.

And Kayla! Oooh Kayla, Kayla, Kayla.. I would never think I'd be able to say her name without throwing up. But she's FINALLY, left Brandon alone... well not technically... she's supposedly "missing". Knowing her crazy ass, she just ran away with one of the random boys she hooks up with. I honestly don't care what's going on with the girl and her life, she probably made up the missing rumor herself just to be relevant.

Enough talk about Kayla..

Everything has been going good with Brandon, we're going on two years in a few months, and I couldn't be happier. We've both been working hard and saving up money and we have enough for our own apartment and to support our babies. And we're both going to Hunter! Hunter is a great school, and even though it isn't that great for basketball I'm sure Brandon will make them the best. He had offers from Texas A&M, Louisville, Syracuse, etc, but he wanted to stay here.. I felt so bad. I wanted him to go and pursue his basketball dream, and I feel like I got in the way. All of his friends are going to their dream schools, and he has to stay with his girlfriend in New York :( But this is why I love Brandon, he would do anything for me and sacrificed everything for me. His friends tell him he's sprung but what they don't know is that I am too. I'm head over heels in love with B, and I know I'm only gonna fall deeper and deeper in love with him as the years go on.

I closed my journal and put it away in my little hiding place. My stomach was hurting so much, probably because I'm hungry. I haven't eaten since 10 this morning. I looked at the clock saying 12:03 p.m.. It hasn't been that long but I don't care, I'm eating for three right now.

I stood up and went downstairs to get something to eat, and felt a sharp pain in my stomach. I swear these kids are gonna play soccer as soon as they're out. "You guys just love to kick mommy huh? I'm getting food right now hold your horses."

I went to the fridge and looked for something to eat. I got out some macaroni salad and put it on a plate and poured barbecue sauce all over it, the best combo ever. I sat and started to eat and felt another sharp pain. "Hey, I'm eating right now can y'all calm down?" I couldn't wait to give birth, for two reasons. I couldn't wait to see them and I couldn't wait 'til all of this pain went away.

Anabella walked into the kitchen and smiled, "I thought I heard someone in here."

I smiled and gave her a hug, "Yeah, I was just telling them to calm down, they're kicking me super-- owwww!"

"Are you okay baby?" Anabella asked concerned, I stood and shook my head leaning over the counter holding my stomach. Just then my water broke.

(I seriously don't know how people react to someones water breaking, so dont judge me lmfao)

"Oh my God it's time! We need to go to the hospital ASAP."

I felt like I got told I was pregnant again. A lot of shock, and confusion, but this time a lot of pain. Anabella told me to hurry and get in the car while she packs clothes for me and gets Courtney ready. I called my father while I was getting to the car.

"Hola mi hija. Que paso?"

"Hola papá, my water just broke."

"Really?! Okay uh, what hospital?"

"Lincoln."

"Okay if Gia wants to come can she, or your mother?"

I wanted to scream HELL NO, but I'll be the bigger person, for now. "Sure, I'm positive they won't want to come anyways."

"You don't know that mi amor, your mother is very forgiving." This is true, she's forgiven my father plenty of times.

"Alright papá, I'll see you there."

I hung up and looked at the time, 12:30 p.m., just in time for Brandon's lunch break. I called him and gladly he answered on the first ring.

"Hey babe. I was about to call you."

"My water broke."

"It did? Oh my god, uh.." he was silent for a while and he cursed under his breath, "damn I'm scared."

I laughed and held my stomach, "Baby don't be scared, just meet me at the hospital. We're going to Lincoln." I said and bit my lip as another contraction came.

"Alright babe, I'll clock out and meet you there in like 20 minutes. I love you."

"I love you too, hurry."

Courtney got in the car with a duffle bag, probably with my clothes in it. "Niyah you're having the babies now?"

"Yes Courtney, I am."

"Do you have the names yet?"

"Yes but it's a secret, you'll find out later."

Anabella got in the car and put on her seat belt, "You ready?"

"Yup, lets do this."