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Chapter 3- Only love can hurt like this

Hey everyone, the song that inspired this chapter was (Only love can hurt like this by Paloma Faith).

Please don't forget to read the previous chapters.

Jen's POV

When I opened the door I saw her beautiful smile just like a glaze of the sun after a rainy day, God only knows how much I missed her and how many times I created scenarios in my mind until this moment. Tonight she looks stunning, her curves are very noticeable on the jeans pants and she is also wearing a provocative white summer blouse with a little transparency which made it impossible not to look when she took her jacket off, the red stilettos finalized her "dressed to kill" outfit.

We walked around the living room and she got surprised by seeing her painting at the wall, what was her thinking? of course I would keep it, I always will. At this point, I just wanted to take her in my arms, but I had to keep it together, I could not take the risk of doing something that would make her run out the door. So my only option was inviting her to sit with me at the dinner table.

- I actually didn't know that we were having dinner - said her with amusement.

- Do you really think that I would make you come all this way and not feed you? - I laugh - You know me better than this Laurel.

- To be honest - she laughed in relief - I am starving, I spent the entire day at the studio and kinda forgot to eat properly, what are we having?

- Stir Fry Chicken and vegetables - I was trying not to laugh at my own joke.

- Hm... I am not familiar with that... - she laughed even more.

- I was actually just finishing some Moroccan vegetable tagine and Briam I hope you like it - I could not stop smiling at her

- It sounds delicious to me - her eyes locked into my eyes for a second and I was afraid of my next movement

- A very shy - Thank you! - escaped from my mouth and I could feel the tension growing at the room and my desire taking over my body starting to taking control of me.

- So... - She looked at me with her curious eyes - Why did you call me?

- I... - I wanted to say that I missed her - I have some good news for you, are you ready for this? -

- Oh my god Jennifer, seriously? what is it? another big project? Just tell please- I could feel her excitement.

- We got approved for another season of TLW, and ... Everyone is freaking out, they think that you would say no. I mean... I understand... - Laurel interrupted me and started talking which made me shut up and listen.

- What? are you kidding me? - Was she surprised? disappointed? I could not read her right now.

- Hm... when did all of this happen? I mean, why didn't anyone call me? - Her face was getting red and full of anger - WOW!!! well... I am mean, I get it, I have been out of the scene for a while, but I would like to be part of this conversation, and now it is "decided "? So, it does not matter, right? the show will be back with or without me... GREAT!- I knew that would be a hard conversation, but definitely this was not what I expected. - I tried to stop her a couple of times but she was not having it.

- Wait, you have to understand that I didn't know either, I woke up this morning with Leisha and Katherine knocking at my door at 6: 00 am telling me all about it, I just know what I am telling you now so please... - I held her hands - Don't you dare to think that I would do this without you, I can't do this without you.

- I am not sure about that - She looked at me very disappointed - You moved on, maybe its time for Bette to move on as well - She said letting go of my hands and this gesture killed me inside

- That means that you won't do it? - I am desperate, I feel like I am losing her once more

- I don't know, I need to think about it... Sometimes I feel like I am not part of it - She started to walk around and took a sip of her wine and after a long pause - I have always felt like I was screaming but nobody was listening... when looking back, I remember that I had to fight for Tina and she only found her journey on season 5 because of the fans and me.

- I am really sorry, I should have done something, but I can guarantee you, it will be different now, they asked me to join the production and I will make sure that it will work under your terms - I walked near her but stopped myself from hugging her because I knew that I wouldn't be able to control my hands- What makes you so sure that I've moved on?

- Because you just called me today, not yesterday or 5 years ago, but today! - she looked at me across the room with her eyes full of pain, But I also know that she wants me as much as I want her, however right now she just wants to hurt me back.

- I... Didn't know what to do - I could feel the storm forming into my eyes

- Bullshit! I don't wanna hear it - She took another sip on her wine.

- Laurel, you gotta understand that I could not leave - I busted into tears.

- Please don't! - She walked over me and made room for my body inside her arms sliding her hands over my waist and we stayed like this for a while until my tears where gone - there is no music at this house? - she asked

- Of course - I whispered on her ears.

- Come, dance with me! - She demanded and I followed her.

I dimmed the lights on the room and she went for a search on my vinyl records shelf.

- Bingo! - She screams of joy

We've done this so many times, and I guess we have never shared this publically but we chose this song for a Bette and Tina scene.

- Did you find it? - I am standing in the middle of the room waiting for her.

- Yes! Let's do it. - And she played - Isaac Hayes - Walk on By

Her catwalk in my direction made me forget everything and brought me back to our moments alone here in this room. I just want to feel her body battling with mine, gosh she is beautiful.

We were dancing our song, my hands navigated her body following every bit of the song, she escaped from me a few moments but I quickly got her into my swing again, she was provocating me and I was totally defeated... I could resist no more so I held her firmly and started to kiss her neck which made her moan into my ears... but she pushed me away and looked at me with fire on her eyes and said- NO!

I watched her body move with the music, gosh, she is so sexy, I can't take it, I need her right now, the excitement between my legs started to drive me so I grabbed her again and whispered - What are you doing to me? - She gave me a half-smile and kissed me, our tongues curled together and we tried to suck all the desire out of this moment, we waited for so long and now we almost suffocated into this kiss, the room got hotter, our breathing got shorter and my hands reached for the button on her pants while her hands were playing with my breasts, our pace started to pick up as we urged to undress each other.

- I... I gotta go - She said escaping from my arms and walking towards the front door.

- Laurel! - I ran after her - Please stay for the night! - I was urging for her

- We know what's gonna happen, please don't ask me again - I know deep inside she is waiting for me to stop her from leaving.

We looked to each other as we silently agreed that we had stop right there.

I helped to put on her jacket and while she was tuning around I managed to catch her in my arms again and we stayed like this for over a minute when she finally looked into my eyes, we did not said a word, we kissed romantically and she started to walk away... I watched her to leave as a part of my own body was departing from me.

-F*** ! - I walked to the  mini bar, took a shot of whiskey, and let my body sink into to bed.