Back to life

Chapter 4 - New York

Hi everyone, it's been awhile but I am back with another chapter and for this one the inspiration song was New York by Snow Patrol.

Back in 2008

Jen's POV - A phone call to LH

- Hey !- I had to choose carefully my words because I knew that she was not happy

- Hi! - I could hear the heaviness only in one word.

- I am sorry I know that you called..., it was not a good time, there was a lot o people around... - Silence on the other side of  line - I  am here in LA and I wonder if I could come over tonight, are you gonna be alone?  Are you there? - For a moment I thought she was gone

- Yes , I am here!!! Do you really want to see me? - She sounded very enraged

- Don't do this... You know that I want to, I... I need to see you! Please? - Trying to appease her

- I don't know Jennifer, you completely disappeared, did not pick up the phone... I had no idea where you been, it's kinda hard not to know if you are alive - She sounded beyond upset in fact she sounded very sad

- You know that I was shooting the movie in New Mexico right? and it was crazy going back-and-forth between New Mexico and Vancouver, now I am starting another project here in LA-   I thought that she would be happy to know that we would be able to see each other more often now as I would be filming in LA.

- Oh! So you did not come to LA, to see me? You are here for WORK and then "eventually" want to see me, right...!I see - I could hear every word that she was saying as a knife cutting me.

-You know what Jen? I can't do this right now,I am happy to finally know that you are ALIVE, but this is it, I am done - She was yelling now.

- Wait! don't hang up, Please honey I rather have this conversation face to face -  I took a long pause and shouted - I miss you, I miss you Laurel , please let me see you tonight - I said rushing into my car - I'll be right over, I am leaving now

- It will take you a littler longer to get where I am now - She said

- What do you mean? Where are you now ?Aren't you home ?- I said that while starting the car.

- I am in New York, I just packed everything and moved with the girls, I had to leave L.A...at least for now - She said in relief.

- Why didn't you tell me that? - I certainly didn't see it coming.

- I tried to tell you many times, but you did not pick up the phone, I am tired of waiting, I am here always waiting for you by the phone, by the door, waiting for you to love me, I am sorry but I can't live like this, we can't live like this - Her voice was calm and firm now.

- I love you, I love you and you know that, please don't give up on us - I am sobbing now -I can get into a flight now to New York... - I sound desperate - I... I actually can't tonight I will start filming tomorrow morning - I smashed my hand on the steering wheel - But I can try to work around and fly back here tomorrow night, yeah I will do that, let me make some phone calls.

- Stop it, you know that this is not gonna happen! You can't just leave now, I heard about it this is a huge production - Unfortunately she was right, I could not leave -Here is what's gonna happen tomorrow, I am going to tell you right now , you will wake up and go to the location and you will be fantastic playing this character everyone will love it and this movie will be amazing and at the end...You will move on with your life and I will move on with mine, please don't try to call me, don't look for me - She hang up before giving me the opportunity to say anything.

She was absolutely right, everything happened just as she said, the movie was a success and I had to stay in LA for almost 2 months, after the shooting it was time for promoting the movie, I toured for another month and I finally went to New York, but she refused to see me, in fact she did not pick up the phone and managed to not tell any of our friends were she was living. She was hiding or maybe trying to find herself again...

After many attempts to reach out to her, I had to accept that it was over, she didn't wanna talk to me and I had to respect that...Until that day, after 2 years trying to connect with her ,I was told that she was organizing an art show.

Should I go ?